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My first love is giving birth as I type this
I just found out through her facebook status
It's not my baby, it's with her and her current boyfriend. Still, this is really big news, I remember how badly she wanted children, she would always talk about them (and kinda freaked me out because I was 19 at the time). I'm really happy for her.
Time. It goes by so quickly, I can remember our relationship as if it were yesterday. This is the video I made after our breakup:
I wish her a wonderful life with her boyfriend and her new baby, Arwen.
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Things are going uphill again
WORK: I'm getting a lot of work at abercrombie and fitch. Also, since the spring semester has started back up, I've been getting consistent figure modeling work. I've been branching out to new schools, and they all seem to like me, and will bring me back for more classes. I'm don't have the kind of money that I need to be making yet, but it's a huge improvement from last month.
Kept applying for jobs, I have a few interviews, we'll see how that goes.
Social: I showed one of my co-workers my modeling portfolio, which includes some erotic art, and now somehow everyone at Abercrombie and Fitch has seen it. Haha I was popular there before but now it's honestly out of control, every girl is on my nuts and thinks I'm some sort of sex god, and every guy wants to be my new best friend because they think I can hook them up with hot models.
Fun stuff! I don't know many photographers who shoot guys, but I've hooked two of my female friends with a photographer.
My sexual confidence has sky rocketed through the roof, I don't know anyone there (male of female) who has more sexual confidence than I do.
Starting today, I have 7 consecutive dates. I usually wouldn't this because it's not my style to be a "playa", but I'm understanding women more and more, and I realize that the #1 turn off is attachment. I have an issue where if I like a women, I stop caring about all other women to the point where she is the only woman who's existence matters to me. That's a great quality for relationships, but it will kill the interest of anyone who isn't at that same level yet. I will not let myself fall in love with a woman until three months after the day that I'm certain that woman is in love with me. I'm totally a one woman guy, but this is the way to get that one woman.
Here's the date countdown:
Today: Merrique the model
Tomorrow: Jessica the Co-worker
Sunday: Vel the Model
Monday: Lola the art instructor
Tuesday: Kandi the pornstar
Wednesday: Christine the Co-worker
Thursday: Morgan the therapist
Also, I'm gonna go to the melodramatic beach bonfire today :)
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Can anyone help me get a 2nd Job?
I've been looking for one for sooo fucking long, but nobody is hiring. I submit at least 4 applications per day on average and it's beginning to look hopeless.
This is America, I shouldn't have to bust my ass just to find a minimum wage job, especially when I graduated from high school with a 3.82 GPA. I might be cursed
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It's time
Modeling is now on the back burner, I'll still accept requests if they're from great photographers, but I'm not really trying to pursue this as a career.
I need to get my life in order
I need to keep in touch with all of my amazing friends
I need to get a secure 2nd job
I need to finished college
I need a sweet, cute, nerdy girlfriend
I just want a modest, secure life of love, laughter, and creativity
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A 5 day notice for an annual meloversary event?
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November 2009
- met Dars for the first time at her birthday party. I was the first to arrive, and got to talk one on one with her for a bit. She's cool, though a little shy haha. Her and her friends were awesome. We ate food from Guam, smoked weed in the back, and took shots. Unfortunately I had to leave early.
- I went to the Big Slice meet up hosted by Robert. I was a little disappointed at how few people were there, but I had a good time talking to the people who were there. Rachanopolis gave me a vicatin, so I tried that for the first time which was really chill.
I Hung out with Felicia and Skip again. We did laundry while watching Conan O'Brien and then went out to eat at Denny's. They're cool, I'm gonna miss them.
- Me, Dhruv, and Michelle went to my old Highschool friend's birthday party. It was really awesome. We just got wasted and danced, me and Dhruv partnered up with these two hotties that were alone on the dance floor. They were really into us too, even though we later realized that their boyfriends were watching. I got number from a cute, short blonde.
- Dhruv and I went to a goth club, which was interesting. There were so few good looking females, it was hard to believe. Mainly creepy guys and ugly/fat women. I got drunk and went crazy anyway, I took of my shirt and danced with a decent looking chick near the front. We completely rocked the dance floor and for a few minutes we had turned the rest of the dancers into an audience.
- I've been hanging out with my good friend Catalina a lot. She's 34, though she looks much younger. We usually just smoke weed all day, but we went out twice this month. Once to a bar, and once to a reggae club. The night we went to the bar, we both got fucking wasted and then ended up going to a hotel and having sex. It wasn't really akward afterwards, but we definitely not anything more than friends.
- I've been running a lot, and going to the gym even more. My obsession with fitness only increases everytime I notice results.
- I got a call from the casting director of Abercrombie & Fitch, letting me know that they're interested in casting me for the ads.
That's really fucking cool. I hope it happens. That could be my big break.
Had a bunch of Photoshoots this month:
Nude couple shoot with Jen
Nude couple shoot with burnett
Artistic shoot in studio with photographer with double D's
American Eagle style shoot
Nude shoot with gregory prescott
Good month! December should be fun too!
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In Love with Jen the Nude Model
I responded with my interest in the project, and I got a quick reply giving me the time and location of the shoot. Also in the reply was a link to the portfolio of the model I was going to be working with, Jen. I clicked the link, and as soon as I saw the first picture, I think my heart skipped a beat.
"wow...,one of the most gorgeous and unique looking people I've seen, and I'm scheduled to do sensual nudes with her in less than 24 hours!" I couldn't believe it, I kept thinking that somehow the shoot would fall apart or that a new male model would be cast as a replacement, but no... the shoot went as scheduled and when I got to the location she was even more beautiful than her pictures.
She was standing there, looking at me, wearing only lingerie.We started talking, and got along perfectly. Chemestry was intense. I was already blown away by the whole situation, it just made it more surreal that she was, personality wise, my perfect match. We talked about our similarities, how we were both half white, how we both expected the other to act like a model diva before showing up, how we both have only lived in two other states (Indiana and Tennessee), and how we both had the exact same skin color and tone (Which I don't even share with my siblings). It was perfect moment.
When we started the shoot the photographer said "Imagine that you two are just discovering each other for the first time", which wasn't hard to do because that's exactly what was happening. We looked into each others eyes, and even though we were both already completely comfortable with each other, there was so much intensity. So much passion. You've seen the pictures, there was no acting involved. Every second of the shoot was pure bliss, and even though we never actually had sex (she has a boyfriend), it felt like the most I've ever been intimate with someone.
It was the closest to love at first sight I've ever experienced.
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List of things I need to blog about
2) party with dars
3) big slice meet up
4) couple shoot with bernett
5) shoot in huntington beach/getting used to trains
6) hanging out with skip and felicia
7) new best friend/party with co-workers
8) obsessed with running
9) future plans
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Fuck your life. My life is a ROCKSTAR: 10/30/09
And I was very lucky because there was a group of musicians setting up to perform one of the peices for the next movie he was going to do. Then I got to meet John Powell himself, though he didn't talk much because he was busy.
After that, I headed to Long Beach to model for a really artsy figure drawing group. On this day they had a special halloween theme to it: all of the lights were going to be turned off and the figure models were going to pose wearing glow in the dark body paint. It was really cool because they painted these abstract reptilian designs on us. There was also this indie electro band playing trippy music, so with the lights off it had the feel of some underground electro-goth club.
Me and the other two female models posed for group for the first two hours of it, and then for the last hour the organizer was so impressed by the glow in the dark patterns that he wanted us to do a photo shoot right there on the stage. He told us all to dance together slowly and move as if we were reptillian creatures.
So here I am dancing slowly and sensually with these two gorgeous figure models, our bodies making complete contact, wearing only glow in the dark reptillian body paint, in what seems like a dark goth club, in front of an audience of about 20 artists, while being photographed. SO. FUCKING. SURREAL.
Oh and these experiences were even better because I was on ecstacy the entire day.
Pics coming soon
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Quick Life update
Went to San Fransisco to visit my family and celebrate my cousins wedding
This was the most akward time seeing family members.
September:
Started college at LACC
Got a 2nd job as a figure model for Otis College of Art and Design
Went to a party with the girl I was digging from work, but she has a boyfriend.
Made another animated film
Oct:
Had a one night stand with a redhead with freckles. Started hanging out a lot with this chick I've known for a year or so.
Bought Webspace, and a Domain .
I've been learning different scripting, and programming languages
Released the Beta of my musical compositions online, it's called "Clown Music"
Have a few photoshoots booked for Oct and Nov.
Still deciding on what I'm gonna do for Halloween.
I've been working out excesively, both for modeling, and because I'm training for the LA marathon 2010
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Hello Melo
I'm so sorry for leaving you, I don't know what I was thinking. Please take me back.
You complete me. <3 <3
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There's this chick I'm really digging at work
Check this out:
She's also a musician
She's also a pot head
She's also biracial (white/el salvadorian)
One day, as we were leaving work, she told me her favorite books were biographies, and then I showed her that the only item in my bag was a biography of Leonardo da Vinchi
and crazily enough, yesterday I found out that we were both born on the same day: 1/18/1987.
So I wanna get to know this chick. That's all I'm saying. I'm not thinking about anything beyond next week or later. I'm gonna see if she want to hang out and have a good time.
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I'm going to apply to American Apparel
It fits my personal style so much more than Abercrombie & Fitch. In fact, as soon as I did some research on it and went to their site, I've become obsessed. I love Their artistic image, their social activism, their retro style, their culture and how it promotes interracial people/relationships and expresses sexuality through personality.
Abercrombie & Fitch culture is for elitist fucks, who glamorize absolute perfection, and look down on those who don't match up to their standards of beauty.
And my god, the women who work there and pose in the ads must have been hand picked specifically for me. Their not only HOT, but they're all my type.
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I am angry
it's probably because I can't sleep
And my gut feels like shit
Moral of the story: don't drink a whole pitcher of tea before going to bed
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guestbook
Having 7 dates doesn't make u a player. It makes u intelligent. You're playing the field. How do you expect to know what u want if you don't taste the waters first? I think it's great that you are able to get to know woman better and at the same time yourself. Regarding the falling in love part... I hate to break it to ya, but that'll happen when it happens and you won't be able to control it. In the mean time... Have fun and enjoy your dates ;-)
wow what a beautiful girl.. i like that first photo in the sand all natural.
Haha, not all women are afraid of attachment.
And if you wait 3 months, she might think you aren't interested and she'd feel insecure.
And dayummm! Sexy Jonny's got a different girl everyday for the next week! ;D
I need to book a photographer for Sara. Maybe you know someone who might be interested?
Three months after seems like a really long time.
Filipinos girls are crazy stay away ....
Also yea there are no jobs, it's not you ... I swear half the jobs posted are fake just to make people think there are jobs, especially in socal ... even after a lot of mexicans left cali because the economy sucks there is still no job growth.
Gl with the job search.
Btw, I don't think you saw the pictures from friday night, but here they are. Those are the ones from my camera. I'll get more from the other two girls' cameras whenever they upload it.
i wish i could just snap my fingers to get you something.
Haha, you don't needa go to the philippines. There's loads of filipinas all over LA. :P
Btw, did you try apple? I remember us having a conversation with that guy who works at apple. He said he'd put in a good word for you. Just use him as a reference. He gave you his card right?
just sayin, i love that you need to find a "sweet, cute, nerdy girlfriend". that's awesome. boy, i wish you the best of luck, on behalf of the nerdy girls out there. ;)
word! love, laughter, and creativity i hope you find it all and get all you want. your a great guy Jonathan!
You need to make sure you party with dars and her friends this Friday! :D
yeah it's lame!
:S
I'm not even going I have a birfday to attend :D
-bites- Hello delicious. I forgot to add you to my friends list last time you were here.
you should have came this past wednesday... everyone was there... well not everyone but sara, teri and some really cool others met up. chill seeing you met up with skip and felicia good times!
And I wished you couldve stayed longer!
Sorry if it was boring at first. =/
We weren't even done prepping for it. Haha.
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About Me
Here today, gone tomorrow, nobody knows where I'm going next
Real Name:Jonathan
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