Could it be that Sam, that horrible poet bitch, can actually post a normal blog entry? You're goddamn right I can, and for every self-centered boy that just doesn't "get" what I write, there are 12,000 people that do.

Since the beginning of this year, my confidence has increased ten-fold. I have kicked the ass of every test that has come my way and won the heart of every professor I have. I can honestly say that when I graduate, people will miss me.

I am actively applying for newspaper positions throughout the state, and I already have a very promising position close at hand. I could find myself as a staff reporter even before the ink dries on the diploma. This is the job I was born for and I won't rest until I can get back into the newsroom. Some people need air to live; I just need a story.

Also, I have been listening more and more to bands like Death From Above 1979, Jack off Jill, Queens of the Stone Age and Nine Inch Nails. I still have to get the new NIN album, and I am gearing up for new albums from Marilyn Manson and Smashing Pumpkins. As for video games, I'm working on a column to celebrate the Halo 3 Beta and I can't wait for Bioshock to come out later this year.

As for my social life, I have friends that can't get enough of me, family that loves me and a new found appreciation for harmless flirting. It's nice to know that I've still got it.

It's good to be the queen.

running my fingers along my collar
mouth dry and nails jagged
barefoot and beautiful
my mascara has shifted out of place
everything is silent

perfect

i will not stop
until my name is under the headline
i don't need money
i don't need health insurance
just give me experience
give me a chance
give me my college credit
so i can graduate
i promise i will get the story
i promise i will deliver the truth
just give me the assignments
and get out of my way

i remember being in high school
no friends
big bangs
ill-fitting clothes
then one day i woke up
underneath a red-headed dork
no bangs
still no friends
fixated on every inch of my skin
and all i could think was
everything is in place
and i'm truly happy