I hate bidding for shit on ebay.

It makes me so fucking nervous.

But here I am doing it again.

My vision is blurred and I'm shaking.

I think I have a problem.

Darkstarling: where people come to write essays on what they think are important issues with a hope of being featured on the front page

Vampirefreaks: where a crappy picture of some random scene kid is accompanied by their sexual orientation

Xanga: which contains important thought provoking featured weblogs such as Ten Tips on Dating A Korean Girl, Increasing the Chances People Will Comment You, and I'm a sucker for a nice smile.

Buzznet: where if it isn't about music it isn't shit and where everyone competes to see who has the biggest collection of Pete Wentz pictures

Livejournal: where even though there are thousands of communities and even more people you can feel totally alone

Blogger: where the html challenged and simple minded come to write something that no one will ever read

Myspace: where you can build up a list of millions of friends but not one of them knows your real name

Facebook: where you can poke people till they're sore and find your teachers but can't get anyone to read your blog post

My dad brought home Subway.

I'm not hungry and I don't want it.

I think i'll just throw it away.

Its will be in the dump still wrapped in its Subway paper.

At least the rats will like it.

I used to have a friend names Savannah.

She didn't die or anything we just stopped being friends.

She's changed so much yet not at all.

She's not as smart as I once thought.

I hope she likes the show Jeopardy, since thats where she's headed.

Should I Take Out My Lipring?

31% said Yes, you could always get it redone later.
69% said No, you got it done already just keep it.

Total Votes: 59

So I'm watching 28 Weeks Later and I'm at the beginning where the man just left his wife to die so that he might live and I thought I could never do that.

I mean I would never leave any of my family. Ever. I'd rather die with them trying to save them. I wouldn't even leave my dog. I just couldn't. I wouldn't leave my best friend either. God if I did I wouldn't deserve to live.

I am so fucking pissed off. My girlfriend is gone and I won't get to see her till Sunday for the next three weeks or so, my parents have been gone all day, my best friend is at work, I'm pissed at one of my teachers, and I haven't eaten since yesterday at lunch.

Lets just go through all these points in order...
My girlfriend has signed up for band again this year even though she says that she is not going to do anything with it after high school. Thats six years down the drain. It makes her so tired that she has going to bed at 7 or 8 every night and for the first month or two of school she is gone all weekend. YAY!!

My parents left early this morning for my grandmothers and still aren't back yet and I don't have anyway to leave the house since I can't drive.

My best friend is at work and hasn't responded to any messages I've left her since Wednesday.

One of my teachers said that I say things just to get a reaction from them and that I like to shock people. I hate people like that so now out of fear I'm just sitting in school and reading instead of talking.

I didn't have dinner last night and since there is no food in the house and all the money is with my parents, not like I really have a ride anywhere, I have nothing to eat and I'm feeling really sick.

I'm just really pissed off right now.

Today kinda sucked... On the way home from school today me and my girlfriend got into a fight. My parents are going to be gone all weekend, won't be back till Sunday, and my girlfriend won't be coming over to stay with me. She has a marching festival thing that she has to be at early on Saturday morning and won't be back till Sunday morning like at three or four. I know that she doesn't like to get ready at my house but it kinda pisses me off that she won't suck it up and come over to keep me company. You know what, what ever. I'm like uber pissed. She wants me to come over instead but every time I come over there I get sick and I don't feel comfortable leaving my puppy home all night by herself for the first time. She even admitted that I get sick every time I stay over their but she still wants me to come. Sorry but I don't feel like missing anymore school.

As soon as I got home it sunk in and I got more pissed. We talked for a bit but then I got all "I so don't want to be awake right now, I'm to pissed off and upset" so I let her go. I woke up at like eight when she called me. I still didn't really want to talk to her so we hung up again.

I know that I seem selfish because I see it too. But I can't help the way I feel. I just want to go to school, read, and sleep. I haven't even had anything to eat today.

I hate when I get this way.

On the bright side I really can't wait to go to school to see Paul. God hes so super nice.

Thats kinda all I have to say right now but since I'll no doubt be up all effing night I might be back later or in the early hours of tomorrow.

MY LAPTOP IS IN FUCKING BERKLEY MISSOURI!!!

I LIVE IN MISSOURI!!!!

ITS SO GONNA BE HERE ON TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So there are a lot of things that I want to read on the internet and lots of sites that I want to join but my screen is so terrible and blotchy and blacked that I can only go on sites that I can navigate with little visibility. I really can't wait for my new laptop. It's in Indiana right now and has been there since 2:11 am yesterday. Yeah I really need to stop watching the Fedx tracker.

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I'm stuck at home with the sniffles today and it couldn't be worse. I barley got any sleep last night, I can't breathe (thanks asthma), my nose is all stuffed up, and my eyes are all red and watery and puffy.

Ugg! I was looking forward to school today since we had the long weekend. I was all excited to see Professor Burd and Mike and Paul and Dilion and so on and so forth.

I hope I feel better soon. I'm driving myself crazy.