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Can today become more fucked up?

Today I had to do a presentation in my literature class, and I ended up having a panic attack and stumbling through the whole thing and I was worried that I had a bad grade. Shane says I should tell the teacher that's why it wasn't my best, but I'm not sure if it would help any, or look like I was trying to get pity points or something.

We had some lunch out after class and then we came home to Dusty ripping up the carpet by the door. There was little pieces of it everywhere. I checked my phone after that and I had a missed call from the front office of our apartment.

I had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach and I told Shane that I knew it was about Dusty and it was. I called back and she started to tell me that some people that work nights and sleep days complained that Dusty was howling and crying and screaming during the day. I just broke down. I handed Shane the phone and he talked to her and didn't mention the fact that he was here temporarily.

I'm just so tired, depressed and pissed off at this point. My mom is living out of her car and no one in my family is fucking offering her a couch, a floor even! They have three bedroom goddamn 300k houses, I had a one bedroom apartment! Who the fuck has more space? RAH.
Its this combination of everything that is making me feel totally volatile.

This weekend we are bringing Dusty back to my mom in Navarre and he is going to live with her in her car I guess. That's what she said, and I don't think this dog can be anywhere else than with her and it fucking sucks. I feel so helpless. I tried to help and that got fucked up. I just feel useless right now. And I can't seem to shake this feeling.

le updatez

I've been hating this new class that I've had, American Literature. It's basically everything that I did in my highschool English classes. Tomorrow is the final project where I have to get up and present an author with a poster board and it shouldn't be too hard, I just hate doing those -.-
Next class is English Comp.
I'm about ready to stab my college in the face.
rawr.

Just remember this one thing:

Motivational

For Oona, My Photography :)

These are some shots that I took while one of my favorite local bands, Retorik was playing at a festival that my mom put together. No flash, no photoshop. ( I don't use that ever.) Just lucky shots and good timing :)

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This last one my senior year won first place and then place in regionals from all the schools in the county, I think it was like 25th of 27 or something like that. I'm most proud of this. :)

I am such a nerd.

Tags: Art, nerd, paint

I just downloaded the Bioshock 2 soundtrack. I actually like all that old music, and it's creepy when it's applied to the game but its really nice outside of that.

I also got some canvas and an ink pot and pen today from the art store. I'm pretty excited. I painted a dragon for my wall and it looks all lonely so I'm going to do some more oriental themed things. Maybe a tiger or a koi fish or a crane, something like that.

I suck at water colors, but I'm trying. I like acrylic more but I'm not really feeling acrylic for the oriental thing, and the dragon is water colors. They are a pain in the ass, but sometimes it turns out really nice. Looking forward to some art action. :D

I think this sums up life.

Tags: life, Wolves

Timber Wolf Pictures, Images and Photos

One day an old Native American grandfather was talking to his grandson. He said, "There are two wolves fighting inside all of us -

the wolf of fear and hate, and the wolf of love and peace."

The grandson listened, then looked up at his grandfather and asked, "Which one will win?"

The grandfather replied, "The one we feed."

Into the Lion's Mouth.

Ah. Drama. Gotta love it right?

My two best friends, Jessica and Tayla have been planning to roadtrip down to me here in ol' Daytona. I was really excited and it was for Jessi's birthday so there was going to be some drinking on her part, but as long as she doesn't want me to do it with her then it's cool.

Anyway, Tayla texts me yesterday and says she can't go because she can't afford it. Jessica called me really upset about it and was wondering if Tayla had some kind of alterior motive for not going or something. I was kind of wondering the same thing because Jessica was going to pay for everything.

So we tried to get to her all day but she was at work and then she finally texted back. I remember once that she told me she might be upset coming here because her boyfriend wouldn't be able to go. So jess asked if that was the reason.

She told me that she wanted to stay because she couldn't afford to miss work because she has to save up to move out. Then she started going off on me. The next hour or so was filled with a useless fight then she said 'fuck it, i'll go'

I told her if she was going to be fucked financially because she came to see me then don't come, and she always blows everything I say out of proportion when it's in a fight thing like this.

Jessica is ready to give up on the whole trip because Tayla will be miserable if she comes and then pissed if Jess comes without her. It's a fucking double edged sword and I hate it. I'm tired of this triangle bullshit that's going on with them everytime we try and make plans.

Everytime I try to resolve something then it blows up bigger and bigger and I ask myself sometimes why the fuck are we still friends? Why do I put up with this everytime I want to do something? Right now I don't fucking care what happens, it seems like it'll be better to just be a damn hermit and work on myself. T.T
-Grumpy panda sound-

The Red Pyramid

This is probably the best videogame villain, ever.
EVERRRRR.
I <3 him
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I got my baby back :)

Tags: Dusty

I have a Husky, German Shepard, Malamute, Timber Wolf mix snoozing on my bed right now. His furry butt has been in my apartment since Sunday, and he is slowly getting used to it. His name is Dusty and he's my baby.

At first he whined and screamed when I left to go to school and he still doesn't really want to eat that much. Shane was worried about him crying and so he got him a shock collar. The first time I saw him get zapped I cried, because he didn't stop barking so he got shocked again and sounded pitiful. But our apartment walls are so thin that we can't have him going off all the time, if I get a complaint then he's going to be in big trouble.

My mom couldn't have him with her situation she had to sell everything she has and I don't know where she is going to go because of the bird that is like her second daughter that she refuses to give up. I understand, but Dusty is so depressed he hasn't even touched his kibble and all he does is lay around and sigh. But he was good when we had company the other day, that excited him.

I'm just hoping that he will cheer up soon, and not be so sad. It is a drastic change, he's around a completely new environment. I'm glad I have him here though, because if I didn't there would be no telling what would happen to him.

dusty

dusters

Cyborg

Popsicle Pink

Tags: pink, raw

I finally dyed my hair the color that I wanted it which is this pink-ish reddish color that is really vibrant.
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Raw Hairdye is prolly one of my favorites, almost better than Manic Panic but with less colors available. I really like this color, for some reason I've always been attracted to red/pink colors. Dunno why, they just really appeal to me.
<3

Where did the sunshine go?

Everyone is being a grumper today, and its really cold outside.
Today doesn't really feel much like a Florida day :(
I kind of just want to crawl into bed and not get out for a long time.

I cannot stop watching this

RuPauls Drag Race is so addicting.
Its so fun! If I was a guy, I'd totally do drag ;)

Best candy ever.

Tags: CANDY

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I <3 sour stuff

Bright colors in the animal kingdom in relation to hairdye

So I was doing some thinking today from a biological standpoint about my chronic hair dying. I love bright colors and people have often accused me of doing it just for the attention. I am actually a contradiction because I don't enjoy the attention it brings too often, but I do like being different.

In the animal world, bright colors signify danger. Like this adorable poison dart frog:

Poison Dart Frog Pictures, Images and Photos

Their skin is so toxic that the tribes in south america where they live run them on the tips of the their arrows and use the poison to hunt animals. You'll die pretty much if this stuff gets in you.

Anyway, since I was super anti-social and hated being around people when I started doing the colors, I feel like maybe some weird biological hidden thing triggered that in my head. And people generally still avoid me because I scare them, which I don't really understand but maybe its an animal thing.
they see the bright warning color, and they think 'danger!' maybe its some ancient instinct. I just thought that maybe there was something in that.

Afterall, humans are just highly evolved animals. :)

Lazybonesss

Tags: lazybones

I feel especially lazy today.
I have a final for advanced biology thursday and I don't feel much like studying at the moment. From what I remember my next class is speech, which I've heard is really good and some of the people from my biology class will be in there which is cool. I like a lot of the people in there, they are really nice, minus the few really ignorant and mean people.
Speech is just talking from what I've gathered and I've come out of my shell enough to do that without freaking out too much. I used to be so shy that I couldn't even order my own food, but that doesn't really phase me now. Not sure what exactly made me get over it, but I did. It's kind of weird to me when I think about it.
This studyguide is yelling at me from my pack.
grr.

Dear Anonymous,

Please stop stalking my profile!
I keep seeing you! You creep me out! I dun know who you beeee!
Atleast get a melo and stalk me
gah!

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Surreal.

So I just finished downloading all of Dir en Grey's albums. I only had their past 3 american releases but since I've gotten my laptop Utorrent has been like my best friend
Its weird because their music always makes me feel so surreal and strange but in a good way, whenever I'm upset its soothing despite it being screaming metal in japanese.
How bout you, fellow melo-ers. Any music do that for you?

Fun Facts!

The women of the Tiwi tribe in the South Pacific are married at birth.

When Albert Einstein died, his final words died with him. The nurse at his side didn't understand German.

St Patrick, the patron saint of Ireland, was not Irish.

The lance ceased to be an official battle weapon in the British Army in 1927.

St. John was the only one of the 12 Apostles to die a natural death.

Many sailors used to wear gold earrings so that they could afford a proper burial when they died.

Some very Orthodox Jew refuse to speak Hebrew, believing it to be a language reserved only for the Prophets.

A South African monkey was once awarded a medal and promoted to the rank of corporal during World War I.

Born 4 January 1838, General Tom Thumb's growth slowed at the age of 6 months, at 5 years he was signed to the circus by P.T. Barnum, and at adulthood reached a height of only 1 metre.

Because they had no proper rubbish disposal system, the streets of ancient Mesopotamia became literally knee-deep in rubbish.

The Toltecs, Seventh-century native Mexicans, went into battle with wooden swords so as not to kill their enemies.

China banned the pigtail in 1911 as it was seen as a symbol of feudalism.

The Amayra guides of Bolivia are said to be able to keep pace with a trotting horse for a distance of 100 kilometres.

Sliced bread was patented by a jeweller, Otto Rohwedder, in 1928. He had been working on it for 16 years, having started in 1912.

Before it was stopped by the British, it was the not uncommon for women in some areas of India to choose to be burnt alive on their husband's funeral pyre.

Ivan the terrible claimed to have 'deflowered thousands of virgins and butchered a similar number of resulting offspring'.

Before the Second World War, it was considered a sacrilege to even touch an Emperor of Japan.

An American aircraft in Vietnam shot itself down with one of its own missiles.

The Anglo-Saxons believed Friday to be such an unlucky day that they ritually slaughtered any child unfortunate enough to be born on that day.

During the eighteenth century, laws had to be brought in to curb the seemingly insatiable appetite for gin amongst the poor. Their annual intake was as much as five million gallons.

Ancient drinkers warded off the devil by clinking their cups

The Nobel Prize resulted form a late change in the will of Alfred Nobel, who did not want to be remembered after his death as a propagator of violence - he invented dynamite.

The cost of the first pay-toilets installed in England was tuppence.

Pogonophobia is the fear of beards.

In 1647 the English Parliament abolished Christmas.

Mao Rse-Tang, the first chairman of the Chinese Communist Party, was born 26 December 1893. Before his rise to power, he occupied the humble position of Assistant Librarian at the University of Peking.

Coffee is the second largest item of international commerce in the world. The largest is petrol.

King George III was declared violently insane in 1811, 9 years before he died.

In Ancient Peru, when a woman found an 'ugly' potato, it was the custom for her to push it into the face of the nearest man.

For Roman Catholics, 5 January is St Simeon Stylites' Day. He was a fifth-century hermit who showed his devotion to God by spending literally years sitting on top of a huge flagpole.

When George I became King of England in 1714, his wife did not become Queen. He placed her under house arrest for 32 years.

The richest 10 per cent of the French people are approximately fifty times better off than the poorest 10 per cent.

Henry VII was the only British King to be crowned on the field of battle

During World War One, the future Pope John XXIII was a sergeant in the Italian Army.

Richard II died aged 33 in 1400. A hole was left in the side of his tomb so people could touch his royal head, but 376 years later some took advantage of this and stole his jawbone.

The magic word "Abracadabra" was originally intended for the specific purpose of curing hay fever.

The Puritans forbade the singing of Christmas Carols, judging them to be out of keeping with the true spirit of Christmas.

Albert Einstein was once offered the Presidency of Israel. He declined saying he had no head for problems.

Uri Geller, the professional psychic was born on December 20 1946. As to the origin of his alleged powers, Mr Geller maintains that they come from the distant planet of Hoova.

Ralph and Carolyn Cummins had 5 children between 1952 and 1966, all were born on the 20 February.

John D. Rockefeller gave away over US$ 500,000,000 during his lifetime.

Only 1 child in 20 are born on the day predicted by the doctor.

In the 1970's, the Rhode Island Legislature in the US entertained a proposal that there be a $2 tax on every act of sexual intercourse in the State.

Widows in equatorial Africa actually wear sackcloth and ashes when attending a funeral.

The 'Hundred Years War' lasted 116 years.

The British did not release the body of Napoleon Bonaparte to the French until twenty days after his death.

Admiral Lord Nelson was less than 1.6 metres tall.

John Glenn, the American who first orbited the Earth, was showered with 3,529 tonnes of ticker tape when he got back.

Native American Indians used to name their children after the first thing they saw as they left their tepees subsequent to the birth. Hence such strange names as Sitting Bull and Running Water.

Catherine the First of Russia, made a rule that no man was allowed to get drunk at one of her parties before nine o'clock.

Queen Elizabeth I passed a law which forced everyone except for the rich to wear a flat cap on Sundays.

In 1969 the shares of the Australian company 'Poseidon' were worth $1, one year later they were worth $280 each.

Julius Caesar wore a laurel wreath to cover the onset of baldness.

Ernest Bevin, Minister of Labour during World War II, left school at the age of eleven.

At the age of 12, Martin Luther King became so depressed he tried committing suicide twice, by jumping out of his bedroom window.

It is illegal to be a prostitute in Siena, Italy, if your name is Mary.

The Turk's consider it considered unlucky to step on a piece of bread.

The authorities do not allow tourists to take pictures of Pygmies in Zambia.

The Dutch in general prefer their french fries with mayonnaise.

Upon the death of F.D. Roosevelt, Harry S Truman became the President of America on 12 April 1945. The initial S in the middle of his name doesn't in fact mean anything. Both his grandfathers had names beginning with 'S', and so Truman's mother didn't want to disappoint either of them.

Sir Isaac Newton was obsessed with the occult and the supernatural.

One of Queen Victoria's wedding gifts was a 3 metre diameter, half tonne cheese.

Alexander Graham Bell, the inventor of the telephone, never phoned his wife or his mother, they were both deaf.

It was considered unfashionable for Venetian women, during the Renaissance to have anything but silvery-blonde hair.

Queen Victoria was one of the first women ever to use chloroform to combat pain during childbirth.

Peter the Great had the head of his wife's lover cut off and put into a jar of preserving alcohol, which he then ordered to be placed by her bed.

The car manufacturer Henry Ford was awarded Hitler's Grand Cross of the Supreme Order of the German Eagle. Henry Ford was the inventor of the assembly line, and Hitler used this knowledge of the assembly line to speed up production, and to create better and interchangeable products.

Atilla the Hun is thought to have been a dwarf.

The warriors tribes of Ethiopia used to hang the testicles of those they killed in battle on the ends of their spears.

On 15 April 1912 the SS Titanic sunk on her maiden voyage and over 1,500 people died. Fourteen years earlier a novel was published by Morgan Robertson which seemed to foretell the disaster. The book described a ship the same size as the Titanic which crashes into an iceberg on its maiden voyage on a misty April night. The name of Robertson's fictional ship was the Titan.

There are over 200 religious denominations in the United States.

Eau de Cologne was originally marketed as a way of protecting yourself against the plague.

Charles the Simple was the grandson of Charles the Bald, both were rulers of France.

Theodor Herzi, the Zionist leader who was born on May 2 1860, once had the astonishing idea of converting Jews to Christianity as a way of combating anti-Semitism.

The women of an African tribe make themselves more attractive by permanently scaring their faces.

Augustus II, the Elector of Saxony and King of Poland seemed to have a prodigious sexual appetite, and fathered hundreds of illegitimate children during his lifetime.

Some moral purists in the Middle Ages believed that women's ears ought to be covered up because the Virgin May had conceived a child through them.

Hindus don't like dying in bed, they prefer to die beside a river.

While at Havard University, Edward Kennedy was suspended for cheating on a Spanish exam.

It is a criminal offence to drive around in a dirty car in Russia.

The Emperor Caligula once decided to go to war with the Roman God of the sea, Poseidon, and ordered his soldiers to throw their spears into the water at random.

The Ecuadorian poet, José Olmedo, has a statue in his honour in his home country. But, unable to commission a sculptor, due to limited funds, the government brought a second-hand statue .. Of the English poet Lord Byron.

In 1726, at only 7 years old, Charles Sauson inherited the post of official executioner.

Sir Winston Churchill rationed himself to 15 cigars a day.

On 7 January 1904 the distress call 'CQD' was introduced. 'CQ' stood for 'Seek You' and 'D' for 'Danger'. This lasted only until 1906 when it was replaced with 'SOS'.

Though it is forbidden by the Government, many Indians still adhere to the caste system which says that it is a defilement for even the shadow of a person from a lowly caste to fall on a Brahman ( a member of the highest priestly caste).

In parts of Malaya, the women keep harems of men.

The childrens' nursery rhyme 'Ring-a-Ring-a-Roses' actually refers to the Black Death which killed about 30 million people in the fourteenth-century.

The word 'denim' comes from 'de Nimes', Nimes being the town the fabric was originally produced.

During the reign of Elizabeth I, there was a tax put on men's beards.

Idi Amin, one of the most ruthless tyrants in the world, before coming to power, served in the British Army.

Some Eskimos have been known to use refrigerators to keep their food from freezing.

It is illegal to play tennis in the streets of Cambridge.

Custer was the youngest General in US history, he was promoted at the age of 23.

It costs more to send someone to reform school than it does to send them to Eton.

The American pilot Charles Lindbergh received the Service Cross of the German Eagle form Hermann Goering in 1938.

The active ingredient in Chinese Bird's nest soup is saliva.

Marie Currie, who twice won the Nobel Prize, and discovered radium, was not allowed to become a member of the prestigious French Academy because she was a woman.

It was quite common for the men of Ancient Greece to exercise in public .. naked.

John Paul Getty, once the richest man in the world, had a payphone in his mansion.

Iceland is the world's oldest functioning democracy.

Adolf Eichmann (responsible for countless Jewish deaths during World war II), was originally a travelling salesman for the Vacuum Oil Co. of Austria.

The national flag of Italy was designed by Napoleon Bonaparte.

The Matami Tribe of West Africa play a version of football, the only difference being that they use a human skull instead of a more normal ball.

John Winthrop introduced the fork to the American dinner table for the first time on 25 June 1630.

Elizabeth Blackwell, born in Bristol, England on 3 February 1821, was the first woman in America to gain an M.D. degree.

Abraham Lincoln was shot with a Derringer.

The great Russian leader, Lenin died 21 January 1924, suffering from a degenerative brain disorder. At the time of his death his brain was a quarter of its normal size.

When shipped to the US, the London bridge ( thought by the new owner to be the more famous Tower Bridge ) was classified by US customs to be a 'large antique'.

Sir Winston Churchill was born in a ladies' cloakroom after his mother went into labour during a dance at Blenheim Palace.

In 1849, David Atchison became President of the United States for just one day, and he spent most of the day sleeping.

Between the two World War's, France was controlled by forty different governments.

The 'Crystal Palace' at the Great Exhibition of 1851, contained 92 900 square metres of glass.

It was the custom in Ancient Rome for the men to place their right hand on their testicles when taking an oath. The modern term 'testimony' is derived from this tradition.

Sir Winston Churchill's mother was descended from a Red Indian.

The study of stupidity is called 'monology'.

Hindu men believe(d) it to be unluckily to marry a third time. They could avoid misfortune by marring a tree first. The tree ( his third wife ) was then burnt, freeing him to marry again.

More money is spent each year on alcohol and cigarettes than on Life insurance.

In 1911 3 men were hung for the murder of Sir Edmund Berry at Greenbury Hill, their last names were Green, Berry , and Hill.

A firm in Britain sold fall-out shelters for pets.

During the seventeen century , the Sultan of Turkey ordered his entire harem of women drowned, and replace with a new one.

Lady Astor once told Winston Churchill 'if you were my husband, I would poison your coffee'. His reply …' if you were my wife, I would drink it ! '.

There are no clocks in Las Vegas casinos.

The Great Pyramid of Giza consists of 2,300,000 blocks each weighing 2.5 tons.

On 9 February 1942, soap rationing began in Britain.

Paul Revere was a dentist.

The Budget speech on April 17 1956 saw the introduction of Premium Savings Bonds into Britain. The machine which picks the winning numbers is called "Ernie", an abbreviation, which stands for' electronic random number indicator equipment'.

Chop-suey is not a native Chinese dish, it was created in California by Chinese immigrants.

The Russian mystic, Rasputin, was the victim of a series of murder attempts on this day in 1916. The assassins poisoned, shot and stabbed him in quick succession, but they found they were unable to finish him off. Rasputin finally succumbed to the ice-cold waters of a river.

Bonnie Prince Charlie, the leader of the Jacobite rebellion to depose of George II of England, was born 31 December 1720. Considered a great Scottish hero, he spent his final years as a drunkard in Rome.

The Liberal Prime Minister, William Gladstone, was born of the 29th December 1809. Apparently, as a result of his strong Puritan impulses, Gladstone kept a selection of whips in his cellar with which he regularly chastised himself.

A parthenophobic has a fear of virgins.

South American gauchos were known to put raw steak under their saddles before starting a day's riding, in order to tenderise the meat.

There are 240 white dots in a Pacman arcade game.

In 1939 the US political party 'The American Nazi Party' had 200,000 members.

King Solomon of Israel had about 700 wives as well as hundreds of mistresses.

Urine was once used to wash clothes.

North American Indian, Sitting Bull, died on 15 December 1890. His bones were laid to rest in North Dakota, but a business group wanted him moved to a 'more natural' site in South Dakota. Their campaign was rejected so they stole the bones, and they now reside in Sitting Bull Park, South Dakota.

St Nicholas, the original Father Christmas, is the patron saint of thieves, virgins and communist Russia.

Dublin is home of the Fairy Investigation Society.

Fourteen million people were killed in World War I, twenty million died in a flu epidemic in the years that followed.

People in Siberia often buy milk frozen on a stick.

Princess Ann was the only competitor at the 1976 Montreal Olympics that did not have to undergo a sex test.

Ethelred the Unready, King of England in the Tenth-century, spent his wedding night in bed with his wife and his mother-in-law.

Coffins which are due for cremation are usually made with plastic handles.

Blackbird, who was the chief of Omaha Indians, was buried sitting on his favourite horse.

The two highest IQ's ever recorded (on a standard test) both belong to women.

The Tory Prime Minister, Benjamin Disreali, was born 21 December 1804. He was noted for his oratory and had a number of memorable exchanges in the House with his great rival William Gladstone. Asked what the difference between a calamity and a misfortune was Disreali replied: 'If Gladstone fell into the Thames it would be a misfortune, but if someone pulled him out again, it would be a calamity'.

The Imperial Throne of Japan has been occupied by the same family for the last thirteen hundred years.

In the seventeenth-century a Boston man was sentenced to two hours in the stocks for obscene behaviour, his crime, kissing his wife in a public place on a Sunday.

President Kaunda of Zambia once threatened to resign if his fellow countrymen didn't stop drinking so much alcohol.

Due to staggering inflation in the 1920's, 4,000,000,000,000,000,000 German marks were worth 1 US dollar.

Gorgias of Epirus was born during preparation of his mothers funeral.

The city of New York contains a district called 'Hell's Kitchen'.

The city of Hiroshima left the Industrial Promotion Centre standing as a monument the atomic bombing.

During the Medieval Crusades, transporting bodies off the battlefield for burial was a major problem, this was solved by carrying a huge cauldron into the Holy wars, boiling down the bodies, and taking only the bones with them.

A ten-gallon hat holds three-quarters of a gallon.

George Washington grew marijuana in his garden.

I want to cosplay this

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So AWESOMEEEEE :3

Will someone please tell meee!

When the hell did naked titties start showing up in videogames? WHAT THE HELL.

ABDC

Tags: ABDC, dance, mtv

That show on mtv, America's Best Dance Crew, has kinda like gone down a few notches over the seasons.
I watch it now, and I've watched like all of them, kinda lame I know but I like it, and all these new dance crews don't really compare to like the first 3 or 4 seasons.
I've found like two I enjoyed since then.
Maybe people are just running out of ideas.
Seems that way.

Bioshock 2

Is amazing so far. I wish my glasses would stop giving me headaches though so I could enjoy it more :(

I hate nightmares

I just woke up today from a nightmare, which I rarely have but when I do it's always weird shit. Like this time it was aliens.
Aliens always scare me in dreams, more like terrify actually.
I was in this house and it was like my birthday or something and people were that that I hadn't talked to in a long time.
Anyway, I was outside talking to girl Ashley who was a good friend of mine in highschool and we ended up fighting and not being friends.
I looked up at the sky and all the stars were moving forward, like they were little ships or something, I told my mom and she got really scared so we went inside.When I was going through the doorway I collapsed and it was like i couldn't move anymore.
It flashes to day, and I'm held up in my room with all my friends and some cats...? wtf, i dont have cats...
ANYWHOO, i'm looking through these blinds and these streaks in the blue clouds are like over the neighborhood and a ship rises up and this white robot looking thing comes out and starts saying: "We told you to stop experiment, and now you'll pay the price." or something like that.
And thats when I woke up.
Ugh. Still gives me shivers. I hate nightmares.

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Evolution

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I want this car soooo bad o.o!! White just like that, only with pink rims and on the side a cherry blossom tree with the petals blowing backwards.
Its gonna be sexy. Cheyaaa. I just need like 50 grand to get one ._.!!

Creeeepyy!

BioShock Pictures, Images and Photos

I loved this game! I'm behind on these new systems, I just beat it haha just in time for the new one that my boyfriend reserved. ^^
Now on to Devil May Cry 4!
>3

I want

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Or:

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Image.

Today I was shopping with my boyfriend and doing errands, and I didn't change out of my school clothes, which is business casual. Nice slacks, nice blouse, overcoat thing, I look like a lawyer basically.
Well today I found that a lot more people talked to me than usual. Just random conversation at the store and whatnot, but that doesn't usually happen to me. I thought it was interesting, maybe it was the way I was dressed?
<3

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Re: Can today become more fucked up?

No I'm in Florida. Some suggestions for her would be nice :) No, because she also has a bird that hates me, and it is also very loud and aggressive and basically only likes her, and its like her other daughter. My boyfriend said she could stay here, minus the bird because it's attacked him before and he is scared. I'm not sure if she has asked because there is so much drama going on with them, because they don't understand here. My family is the black sheep of the bigger family.
I think I will tell her when I get back to class about it, thank you so much! You know you really help me a lot with your posts, thank you.
<3<3<3 *hugs*

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Re: Can today become more fucked up?

*hug*

My family is the same way... when I was homeless they wouldn't offer me a spare couch. Shit one of my aunts has a 7 bedroom house! *sigh*

oona's picture
Re: Can today become more fucked up?



Your entry makes me so sad. I'm sorry things are turning out to be such a struggle. This is CA you are in, correct? If we put out a prayer request, do you think perhaps someone might read it and have some suggestions? There is no way your mum could stay with you on your couch and take care of the dog during the day? Has your mum actually ASKED your other family members outright?

I would definitely tell the teacher you get panic attacks and also about the other issues you are coping with. Maybe you can make the presentation again--or privately.

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Re: Just remember this one thing:

Aww thank you ^^ Happy St. Patty's to you too!

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Happy St Patrick's Day!

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still bummed i dont have enough monies for tokidoki stuff. XD
also, i actually have never read any of the ender books. my melo name is actually from a song i liked when i was 16. :P

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Re: The Hairdye Chronicles

wow, quite the rainbow! Pretty awesome :D

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Re: I think this sums up life.

He is doing pretty well actually :D He's eating more and barking way less, and he doesn't even whine anymore when we leave for school. He's still a little sad, but he's doing a lot better now ^^
<3

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I love this post here. I saw it in the grocery store once in a magazine, and I thought it was awesome. Your pic of the wolf is just beautiful.

I'm glad if anything I said helped you.

How is your dog?

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Re: I cannot stop watching this

I LOVE this show! And I agree, if I were a man, I'd do drag in a heartbeat...
P.S. My middle name is Jayne too [but with 2 a's] ^.^

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Re: For Oona, My Photography :)

They are a kind of trippy melodic rock with really beautiful but rough male vocals :D

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What kind of music do they play? I sure do like the colours and the glowi-ness of the bottom photo. :)

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Ooh! How nice, and I also love the last one the best. Thank you so much for posting. :)

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Aww well thank you :) I really appreciate that ^^
<3

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Duuuude I love your profile! I love siberian huskies, pokemon & tokidoki :] & I love what you said about bright colors in hair = danger. I thought about that when I dyed my hair firetruck red, ha.

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Re: I am such a nerd.

No I do not D:! But I shall make a folder with my photography and some of my paintings ^^
<3

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Re: I am such a nerd.

Do you have any of your art posted?

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HAHA! I came to your page and Raver's fantasy came on, then my playlist went to a 3days grace song. XD

... that was a NO go lol

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lol well, I was looking for a new game. ^_^

And I was kinda hoping for a zombie game but that sounds alot better! XD

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Re: I think this sums up life.

I love that! May I steal?

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Re: Into the Lion's Mouth.

Nothing wrong with being a hermit, I'm one myself.

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Oh! His name is Pyramid Head in america, but the Red Pyramid in japan. He is from Silent Hill 2. Which is the best game in the Silent Hill series. It's out for ps2 and for the regular xbox. Its an older game but its one of the scariest that I have ever played.
You should play! Its so awesome ^^

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Gah! I love the song you have ^_^

((makes me want to dance))
lol, random.. anyway, the red pyramid? o.O
What game is he from, it looks sooOO... uh, the background makes it look like a somewhat twisted/grossly interesting game! XD

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Thanks Hun! :0D

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Yatta! :D

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hahaha. I beat you to that friending business. :D

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aww thank you so much. would you mind if I friend you?
<3

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That's good then. Maybe check his teeth and make sure they are not giving him chewing problems. Maybe spoil him for awhile til he feels better. I will keep him in my prayers.

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Re: I got my baby back :)

He's about a quarter wolf I think. It gives activates when he barks once, and then shocks him if he barks again. It's not a big shock, its like if you were to get pinched and it scares him more than anything I think. I feel like crap for putting in on him, but it actually helps a lot. He hasn't been too barky when we leave.
He barely eats, if I give him his peanut butter treats he eats, he ate canned food last night which was a good sign. my boyfriend just saw him getting a little bit of his kibble so I think he's starting to eat. :) He's about eleven, but he acts like he's two. Good health, likes to play, I'm hoping he has atleast 4 years ahead of him :D

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What a beautiful dog. He looks part wolf. I have never heard of a shock collar. That sounds painful. :( Is he eating? If he's not eating, he needs a vet doesn't he? Maybe some canned food would entice him? How old is he? Does he like to go on walks?

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Aww ^_^ <3<3<3
I was pretty much in awe the whole time. Like I didn't feel like it was happening and I so wished that I had brought my camera but I was worried they searched you at the doors or something.
The coolest part was probably when Kyo put the mic behind his back so it couldn't have sound and he sang and just his normal voice filled the whole auditorium. It was beautiful. ^^
<3

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OMG! YOU"VE BEEN TO A DIR EN GREY CONCERT!? O.O

**idolizes you**
XD, oooh, sooo jealous right now!

I probably would've been hyperventilating if I were there.... or something like that. lol

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Re: I got my baby back :)

Beautiful doggie ^_^

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There's code for it on my public page, third post down. Just put it in a post and turn on Full HTML.

I just wander about deviantArt to find my background pictures, doing random searches until I find something I like. I really do like that one, though.

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thanks so much! it really means a lot to me =]

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Ooooooh I love your hair color! That's what I would have mine look like if work wouldn't fire me. Hee hee. So I just get chunks dyed red instead. ;-)

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Re: I got my baby back :)

He is insanely cute!

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OMG! XD
i LOVE you! lol ^_^ ... (was that too strong?)

anywayz, yea Dir En Grey does the exact same for me, especially when I REALLY don't want to go to work I'll listen to like Glass Skin right before I go in and I feel better ^_^
lol even though they're all dark and everything hehe
i'd love to go to a j-rock concert and just feel the energy ya know? oh! and I love the hair color <3

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Re: Popsicle Pink

Really? Does it last longer? For me, Manic Panic is vibrant for about a week and a half before it starts fading and/or getting splotchy looking.

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