which is nice. i've been pretty bummed this week, total low tolerance for bullshit of any kind, which resulted in me not spending the full 9 periods (or rather 8 for me since i have a study hall first period and don't come in until it's over) in school. monday i didn't go at all, tuesday i walked in and walked right back out as soon as i found out i had all day in school suspension (wasn't feeling it, six hours in a room with no cigarette break doesn't work well for me, or anyone around me for that matter) and came back to do it at around 11 oclock. yesterday i cut a few classes, today i cut one, so maybe tomorrow i can manage a full day.
speaking of tomorrow! alice in fucking wonderland comes out<3333333 i can't even explain how excited i am for this movie. me, ashley and mike have been planning this out since we heard that they were making it.. and it's finally here! getting so shitty for that, let me tell you hahaha. then there's a show on saturday, bury your dead, otep, etc etc bands i don't actually listen to anymore since (for the most part) i grew out of that screamy bullshit music other than every time i die, because i fucking love them and always will, but anyway, it should be a good time. not sure what i'm supposed to wear because i have a feeling lacey shirts and skimmers will make me stick out like a sore thumb, if not for the fact that i'm not a 27 year old dude with a beard. so who knows.. maybe i'll just be really obnoxious and wear a poofy ass dress and look ridiculously out of place and feminine just for giggles.
that idea is actually sounding really good now, hm
i'll keep you all posted!

by the distance. but id take the rope and strangle your words in a second if you weren't below the mason-dixon line.

the world is a strange, strange place.
this g00d looking boy who graduated from my school like three years ago who i used to be tight with back in the daaaay when i was like a child (4 years ago or so haha) asked me for my number today.. i think it'll be fun to hang out with him again. i just remember being like, 13, and him inviting me to a rave and i was so nervous and like, chickened out at the last second hahaha.. hopefully he stopped doing coke! xoxo

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be honest with anyone without having them make me feel like shit, i might be able to hold it together.

alot of things, alot of people, alot of situations. i thought i was losing my partner in crime, but jackie decided not to go to a halfway house, because she doesn't really need it, she was just bugging out the other day, which is good. because i can actually have a conversation with her. and she doesn't change plans, or make plans with me and then not answer her phone for hours and hours until its 10 oclock and we had plans at 5. (cough ashley and mike cough) so, last night/this morning was fun, chainsmoking and watching across the universe and fight club, saving eternal sunshine for next weekend. ashley keeps hitting me up, because i told her we really have to talk, but honestly, i feel a little spiteful and kind of want to just not answer my phone for three hours and come up with a really lame excuse and see how that makes her feel.. bitchy, i know, but i don't even feel like talking to her right now. and at this point i really just hate mike, he's been such a fucker i don't even want to hang out with them at all to be totally honest, because they're always up eachothers ass and i don't want to deal with both of them, especially mike. whatever though. i think i'm gonna bum around a bit more and then call her back.

didn't end up going to brooklyn this past weekend, plans fell through like always.
not staying at bretts this weekend, going to pennsylvania for my aunts funeral.
the only thing that's good is i figured out what my living situation is going to be when i go to manhattan for cosmotology school in september.. jackie said she'd move to brooklyn with me and go to brooklyn community college for two years, which is great, because i love her and we'd be great roommates. i'm gonna have to work obviously, but i don't think i'll mind having a job and going to school. i'll be out of this shithole town so i can't complain. i wasn't planning on going away next year until recently, but i came to the realization if i don't get out now, i won't get out. i feel really horrible because i love my family alot, my mom is seriously my best friend and it's a really scary feeling honestly leaving and going out on my own so unexpectedly, but i really feel like i have to do it for myself, to prove to myself that i can. my mom understands too, and they're gonna help me out as much as they can with rent and paying for stuff while i'm still getting on my feet.
things aren't really getting better, but i'm clinging to the hope that they will soon.
day 2, not so fun. glad i have a killer support system :)