detrimentalme

i used to be so good

i can't find the right words for the way i feel

this feeling needs to go

i can't even describe it properly. i feel like i'm faking it. like everyday i'm faking some aspect. i want things to change. i want to feel normal. lately i've been missing high school years. not school, but being okay with myself. its funny to think that i was more okay with me then. but i was so sure that what i was doing was the right thing. and now i'm always wondering and nervous that i'm messing something up.

as fallout boy said
Are we growing up or just going down?

fake it

My grandparent are here for lunch. Thrilling.
My mom's been cleaning for a day and half now, just for this three hour deal
Now we get to fake that we all get along and are just trilled to see them
And I get to pretend I'm not super sick.
I'm only awake for the lasagna and cake

of course

I went all winter without getting really sick. I think I missed like 1 day last semester because I was sick for like 5 days.
I missed Bio yesterday because I was sick. I actually had to walk out of Sociology Thursday and get a drink because I was coughing so bad.
Spent most of last night coughing, basically vomiting mucus
Awesome.
And I seem to have pulled a muscle from coughing so damn bad.
Awesome.
Have I mentioned that I don't have time to be sick?
Ugh.

I have to work on my group project tonight. Country report on Russia
And I need to start my Bio report. On hemophilia.
Awesome.

text me i'm bored

207.385.7673
unlimited messaging on t-mobile.
gonna do math homework now.
ew.
entertain me

i'm bored melo

and i should sleep but i'm not tired.
and i don't want to do math. ew.
and everyone i know is asleep, so i can't text them
what do other people do when their bored?

tmobile you confuse me but sent me my phone a day early so i won't bitch too much

i didn't understand this flexpay craziness. i think i got it now. if not, customer support please.
i got a free car charger, awesome i guess lol
i've already sent a crap ton of text messages
and i can't find my phone number list.
lamesauce.

spent too much money

but i ordered my phone.
cost me more than i wanted to spend but i didnt have to get a contract.
yay.
like 3 days from now, cell phone yay

now off to do homework and school stuff.

melo kids with tmobile, come here

what's a good phone?

cause i don't know what to get.

dean's list, i got it

Yay me!
Got a little paper all about that in the mail.
If I wasn't so lazy I'd scan it so I can rub it in people's faces
Haha
I kinda feel bad cause the paper all "this reflects your hard work, motivation and dedication to your education."
Uh yeah no. I didn't even try last semester.
Maybe a bit.
Not so much though

261

Vocab words to know for human bio
By Friday
Oh yeah, this is gonna be fun.
And that's not all I need to know.
But I gotta know them bastards too.

But I got my laptop back.
So at least I can type them up on my comfy bed

laptop is back

And I have to say, for a company that made me pay to send it out, they did impress me with their return policy. And it wasn't just a throw the laptop in a pile job and put a new one in the box. I got my laptop back, hard drive in the same condition and all. It might be cleaner than when it left.

But now I have no excuse for not doing my homework :-(

i've figured out

That nothing I will ever do will be good enough for my mother. And I'm really sick of it.
In math the other day, I got a 95, which was the highest grade in the class (I may have had a tie going on there, not sure) and I was happy cause I really thought I bombed it, and my eraser died in the middle of that quiz.

Told my mom. For a reaction I got "Good job, but it should have been a 100."
Uhm thanks. Can you just be happy for me once?

And today
I got a 100 on my human bio test, and did better than Jen, who studied harder than I did, despite me being at her house and studying with her.

My mom "See your smarter than you think you are, if only you could apply yourself like that to everything."

Ahh!

I got a 3.33 last semester. She bitched cause it wasn't a 4.0.
I thought I did pretty well considering my english class was a joke

I've figured out her and my grandmother are one in the same.
Nothing is ever good enough, despite them not being able to do half of what I can.

Grr
I need to remember that school isn't about them

if you end up here via random tour

I'm sorry my melo is pretty much FO or Private at the moment. I've been in a really funky mood lately.
But if you happen to comment on something or other, I do get on a lot to read things/check in/generally be weird.
So don't think that its an abandoned melo, its not.
Just taking a mental health break

I don't know how much I'm going to use this anymore

I won't lie, I hate the new melo. It doesn't feel right anymore. It might not actually be melo that doesn't feel right, it might be me. But right now melo isn't really somewhere I want to be. Its the past constantly hitting me in the head.

If I actually talk to you, you already have me on myspace, twitter, facebook, or AIM.
And if you don't well, I will be around some.

Right now, I'm just not feeling this environment.
IDK.

guestbook

lost_in_a_lie's picture
Re: Public Persona

I love you very much. And that chap stick is yummy isn't it? lol

lost_in_a_lie's picture
Re: this feeling needs to go

i think your perfect, and your doing everything just fine. i promise

inelegant_x's picture
Re: Public Persona

i am recently hating tmobile. i had it for 6 years & just recently it/s been suck for like 8 months.

i/m switching away in june. :/

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: i'm bored melo

i usually text jonah. if you go to his melo, he has his phone number up on there for ppl to text him. do it. i know hes awake lol.

detrimentalme's picture
Re: Public Persona

yeah it was hacked. she changed her password so it should be all better now. if it keeps doing it, lemme know. i can change her password lol

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: Public Persona

meeeeeeg.
tell hayley that her twitter has been hacked =/
or at the very least, i assume it's been hacked considering the direct messages she keeps sending me.

anhzac's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

yeah, they all brag about 97% nationwide coverage, yet, it's so amazing how humongous the other 3% actually is. lol.

detrimentalme's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

yeah it does have the threaded text, my friend had the same phone. i didn't want the contract because of school and possibly moving within the next year, i don't know where i'll have service. i'm gonna be paying like 56 for the 1000 minutes and unlimited texts. i didn't bother with the data plan, i have super internet at home right now. technically i'm not in the tmobile calling area, so i'm gonna have another area phone number, but its the cheapest thing around. verizon wireless is crazy expensive for what you get, and the only other option is us cellular, and they aren't awesome either. thats what happens when i live in the middle of nowhere i guess lol

anhzac's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

The Gravity is a great phone, LG rocks. I think it is supposed to have threaded text, which is awesome, because you can see your text messages like a chatroom box. If not, then the Gravity 2 definitely has it. Yeah I hate retail prices too, I'm on the FlexPay because I don't want to get locked into a 2 year contract yet. It's something like 60 a month for 500 minutes, free mobile to mobile, free nights & weekends, and then unlimited text and web and email. Not too bad.

detrimentalme's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

well for now i'm getting the LG gravity. i dont have a contract so i can always change my mind on phones. i just have to pay retail price,ew. my cousin has the mytouch and i love it but didnt wanna pay for it right now

anhzac's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

I meant touch screen not full screen. ew I need to go back to sleep.

anhzac's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

I have the T-Mobile google htc g1. i love it but only because of the keyboard and touch screen combination but it is getting kind of outdated and needs a better battery. my friend has a gravity 2 and loves it a lot. i wanted the behold 2 or memoir or mytouch but theyre all full screen and i like to write from my phone so i need a keyboard and wifi. hope that helps.

detrimentalme's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

well, he must be a cell phone genius, cause your a degrassi genius. lol

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: melo kids with tmobile, come here

ill ask my uncle. he knows cell phones like i know degrassi.

nobody's picture
Re: if you end up here via random tour

I do this as well from time to time :) I think it's healthy to know when you need privacy <3

evilone's picture
Re: Public Persona

Hello from the random tour bus

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: 261

thaaaaat is a ridiculous number of vocabulary words. :| much luck.

tabinak's picture
Re: i've figured out

Good job Meg! Despite what your mother says I think its pretty good when you can get in the 90's. Nobody is perfect and mistakes are easily done. So good job. Its definitely better than I can do. I would need a calculator. And maybe a moving box full of erasers. And still get it wrong lol.

detrimentalme's picture
Re: i've figured out

my mom is being an asshole lately and everyone but jayson is feeling her wrath.
95 is great on a math test that most people failed. i'm pretty happy with a 95.

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: i've figured out

i was gonna say 'umm...i wanna see your mom go to school and pull out a 4.0.' god. what is up with that? DDD: a 3.3 is a good gpa! 95 is a great school, especially on a math test!

dont let your mom bring you down. youre going to school and youre doing really well, which is more than a lot of people in the world can say.

coffeebean's picture
Re: if you end up here via random tour

Mental health breaks are a good thing, especially more often than not :)

kazakhstan's picture
Re: my birthday wasy yesterday

happy b-lated birthday! from a random tourist.

inelegant_x's picture
Re: Public Persona

mm french vanilla ice cream.

now i want some haha.

lost_in_a_lie's picture
Re: Public Persona

i love you too megpie

detrimentalme's picture
Re: my birthday wasy yesterday

you don't suck. i haven't been on to count down my birthday this year. it was mega fail.
but at least i didn't have to spend it with jayson.

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: my birthday wasy yesterday

NOOOOOOOOOOOO I SUCK. I MISSED YOUR BIRTHDAY. DDD:

IM SO SORRRRYYYYYYYYY. uuuuuugh. faaaail.
but i luffles you and im sorry your birthday was kind of fail. D:
♥ ♥ happy belated birthday.

ozzie's picture
Re: Public Persona

thank youuu. :]

lost_in_a_lie's picture
Re: fuck my life

im really sorry about you being sick and your laptop being a stupid gateway. i love u and ill stop over later if i can

gotterdammerung's picture
Re: Public Persona

The Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster is a parody religion intended to highlight some of the ridiculous things other religions believe. It's not a confrontational movement, though - it was started when some school district in the Southern U.S. (I can't remember which) began to include Creationism in its science curriculum, after which one clever guy reasoned that if something like God is injected into the classroom, it's discriminatory to not include other non-science based religions in the classroom. He sent a letter to the administration demanding that the theory of life according to Pastafarianism (what he called his belief in the Flying Spaghetti Monster, who daily touches us with his noodly appendage) be taught, and his comedic protest spurned something much bigger.
So that's who the decal is, in a nutshell. I'd Google him - Pastafarianism also has some very unique beliefs about pirates and midgets.

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: Public Persona

lol oh hey yeah! they do kinda look like those! now i feel obligated to make little star sprites. ^^

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: Public Persona

lol they totally would get along. they could talk about how annoying we are when we're not bad kids at all. they could say and do outright ridiculous things to eachother and totally understand the other's insanity. it'd be amazing.

ishootcarnivors's picture
Re: Public Persona

Lol. Will do. I like making my own internet lingo sometimes. I mostly like to abbreviate things though. Like my fav is srsly=seriously. I think it's pretty fucking clever, but NOBODY has picked-up on its awesomeness! And I write 'thnx', instead of thanks. And ppl=people (which a lot of ppl use I think?).

detrimentalme's picture
Re: Public Persona

basically. i say what the hell more often than i say what the fuck. come back anytime for random internetland lingo. sometimes its random shit i come up with though lol

ishootcarnivors's picture
Re: Public Persona

Oh. It's just wtf, but less R-rated. Lol. Nice, thnx!

detrimentalme's picture
Re: Public Persona

just have the sim not pay attention to the baby, eventually the social services people will come get it. or hire the nanny a lot. eventually they will turn into a kid, and kids don't need as much attention lol.

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: Public Persona

siiiigh there needs to be an abortion clinic lol.
anyway
i think its insanely difficult to make sims look like people now because its way more customizable than what im used to. i also feel like im gonna insult somebody if they see their sim and think it looks funky lol. ::shrug:: the ashley sim is pretty scary looking though. im gonna have to fiddlefaddle with that today and see if she can have her baby, get her normal clothing back, and then maybe baby gets kidnapped or something lol :|

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: Public Persona

LOL that is a very good point.

detrimentalme's picture
Re: Public Persona

with as malfunctioney that melo can be, be proud you made it to elderly haha

lyheartdattalkn's picture
Re: Public Persona

why thank you meg! :D my melo is elderly today lol.

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