But these past 2 weeks have been absolutely 100% amazing and I wouldn't change a fucking thing.

I LOVE MY LIFE SO MUCH RIGHT NOW.

Monday: Amazing photo shoot with Ava and later, Koerners. I saw sooooo many friends I haven't seen in ages, I made new friends, and I met a boy. He seems nice :)

Tuesday: The Gallery. Major karaoke points for us.

Wednesday: Photo developing times. I love being in the darkroom <3 Ski&Board Steez for charity at the Cellar. Absolutely fantastic! So much alcohol and even more dancing. Plus a wicked cover band.

Thursday: Cinnamon buns with Ava! And later an art auction at the Anza. Fantastic night. Saw tons of art friends plus more, and danced crazily and there was a wicked rap artist that played downstairs in the 'secret' room. Almost had a claustrophobic panic attack but it was so worth it.

Friday: SNOWBOARDING AT GROUSE MOUNTAIN AT NIGHT!!!!!!!!!! OMG it was soooooooooooo much fun. And I got the hang of it right off even though i've only ever been once like 4 years ago. It was fantastic, almost as good as surfing. I learned how to carve :D

Saturday: Shopping downtown, bought a hat that was 48 dollars marked down to 10, and a new top and some makeup. Success. No rainboots yet tho.. and my shoe broke. ahaha... but later tonight we're going to a house party! wooooooo

YAY

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I'll do yesterday since today hasn't really begun.

SO I wake up super early after a crazy night of partying. Like 8.30 am. And then I get dressed etc and go over to the Student Union building to get some breakfast because I have zero food at home. I go to Starbucks and grab a parfait and a coffee and sit and eat my parfait and take my coffee with me on my walk to class. I get to Photography class and sit down, there are 2 other people in the room, my prof Barrie and some chick I don't know. I talk to Barrie for about 2 minutes about the registration issues I had and then Hamish walks in. Yes. Hamish. And I freak out a little bit. And he sits next to me. And he talks to me until class starts, which ended up being about 40 minutes. And it was nice, but also weird and awkward for me especially after having a dream that he wanted to have me back the night before. Upsetting.
Anyways, class went on, we talked about cameras and projects and went over a brief history of photography and ended about half an hour early. And then as we were leaving Hamish waited for me, and then he asked Barrie something so I waited for him, and then I had to go upstairs and he followed me and it was weird and I was confused because he was acting like he wanted to just be around me all morning and I DON'T GET IT. But I miss him so fucking much.
So then I told him I had to run some errands etc and he left and I went and grabbed my painting from upstairs and walked back over to the SUB and left it in the Surf/Ski&Board Office and guess who was in there, yep. Hamish. And then I walked over to my 2nd class which was Psychology and I didn't realize until I walked into that class that I was taking a Psych class about drugs. It's gonna be awesome. I hope.
So then I went home and I was really hungry but decided I was more tired than hungry and so I passed out for about 3 hours. I then woke up and saw my roommate Tia for the first time since being back in Vancouver and that was happy times, so then I went to Safeway and bought some deodorant and cereal and then checked my bank balance and came back on the bus and then met up with Ava at about 4 and we went to the village and ate Japanese food and then she came over and had some tea and then I had to go to a Surf exec meeting at 7 and we talked about all of our planned events and surf trips for this semester and then I came home and watched some Family Guy with my roommates and then complained about boys for a while and then made some popcorn and then went in Kay's room to facebook stalk people and then went in my room to clean it up a bit and then I attempted to get on the internet but it didn't work so I went to bed.
That was yesterday.

1. Lose weight. And I mean it.
2. Learn how to snowboard.
3. Get a job.
4. Earn enough money to buy an SLR and a new iPod
5. Actually attempt to do well in uni.
6. Find a new (and better) boy.

That's all for now I think.

I don't really know any good recipes.
Usually I result to cooking scrambled eggs or pasta. I like gnocchi, and if you like gnocchi then you should mix it with cream cheese, mozzarella, milk, garlic and tomatoes. It's delish.

Here's a kitty.
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I draw.

Johnny Depp by ~raining-ducks on deviantART

Some of my favourite art by some of my favourite artists:

Dali

Gregory Colbert

The Victory of Samothrace

Titian

1902. What takes your breath away? H used to. I need someone who's more amazing than he was.

1903. What did you do today that you regret? Too much sugar.

Will you ever do it again? Definitely.

1904. Is happiness something to be achieved and sought after or is it something to be retained and held onto always, no matter what happens? Both. This was a dumb question.

1905. Would you rather live in a world of perfection or do you like the world the way it is? I like the flaws, they make life interesting.

1906. Is a frightening world an interesting world to live in? Yep.

1907. What gives people depth and character? Experience, culture, knowledge.

1908. What band, together or not would make you want to JUST FLY after seeing their show? The Academy Is…, Blink 182, Pink Floyd, Zeppelin

1909. Speaking of flying, can you fly? I wish.

How do you know? Have you tried? Who hasn’t.

1910. Recently a 10-year-old grilled cheese sandwich in which some people saw the image of the Virgin Mary sold on ebay for $10,000. What do you think of this? Whoever sold it is a rich genius. Whoever bought it is a senile fool.

1911. Who is the next person you will hug? Monica I’m assuming

1912. Where was your last vacation to? Here, Houston.

1913. Where was your last car ride to? Grocery stores etc.

1914. Where was your last bus ride to? Hmm Cambie house I think

1915. Where did you last walk to? Upstairs to my bedroom

1916. What is the worst band in the universe? Possibly the Pussycat Dolls. Maybe Mariah Carey. Or 50 Cent.

1917. What is the next book you want to read? Something by Stephen King.

1918. What are the 3 most useless items on the planet? Mosquitoes, Cockroaches and cling-film that doesn’t cling

1919. What gives you a peaceful feeling? Pink Floyd

1920. Do you ever stay up late watching infomercials? No

Did you ever BUY anything from an infomercial? No

1921. Are you a light sleeper? Pretty much.

1922. Are you a toys R us kid? DAMN STRAIGHT.

1923. Are you part of the mile high club? Not yet.

1924. Do you like:

pina coladas? yes

getting caught in the rain? Yes.

yoga? Yes.

intelligence? Yes times a million

making love at midnight? Yes yes yes yes

health food? Depends

champagne? Looooove it

the feel of the ocean? It’s my favourite part of nature

1925. What was the funniest way that you ever misheard the lyrics to a song? Not sure

1926. What have you never seen anything lovlier than? Eyes. I love eyes.

1927. Have you ever painted on a:

wall: yes

ceramic: yes

painting: yes

model: yes

face: yes

body: yes

1928. If you believe in heaven are there seperate heavens for different animals (kittie heaven. dog heaven, bird heaven, etc)? Heaven is for everyone who deserves it

1929. If you could build your body from scratch using the parts from different celebrities who would you combine? Pretty much Blake Lively’s everything.

1930. If you could build your perfect match from scratch using the parts from different celebrities who would you combine? Johnny Depp and William Beckett.

1931. Avril Lavigne or Michelle Branch? Avril all the way

Vanessa Carlton or Britney Spears? Britney bitch.

1932. When you sleep next to someone do they fall asleep first usually or do you? Not sure, usually them I think

If they do, do you watch them sleep? Depends on the person.

1933. How many people have a piece of your heart? H still has a big piece and he’s so unaware, another piece went to Heaven with Michelle, my family owns a significant amount, and my best friends have dibs on the rest.

1934. What are your day dreams about? Boys.

1935. What is your usual breakfast? Cereal.

1936. How quickly are you willing to take drugs to numb pain? Advil is my best friend.

1937. Finish this sentence. I pity the fool that: never falls in love.

1938. Can you think of three adjectives that DO NOT apply to you even a tiny bit? Composed, manly, emotionless.

1939. What do your salt and pepper shakers look like? Salt and pepper shakers.

1940. When was the last time you hurt yourself? Today.

1941. Would you rather never have to sleep but also never be able to dream or just leave things as they are? I love sleep too much

1942. Have you ever had your car towed? Don’t have a car

1943. Have you ever used kool-aid to dye your hair? nope

1944. Would you rather be naked and famous or dressed and non-famous? Naked and non-famous.

1945. What band or singer do you believe started rock and roll? Chuck Berry possibly

1946. Think of an object that is shaped like your body: an acoustic guitar

1947. If you had a large black vase-pot-thing in your house what would you put in it? Tiger lilies

1948. Where would you like to live when you want to start a family? Somewhere with surf

1949. Would you rather live in the city, suburbs or the country? Near the beach

1950. Were you parents born by the year 1950? No but I’m bad at math

1951. Would you ever participate in a 'sock hop'? Um what

1952. Once there was a green house and inside it was a white house and inside it was a red house and inside it was a bunch of little brown babies. What are we talking about? Some sort of flower?

1953. Have you ever built something? yes.

1954. What is the hardest thing to face each day? Myself.

1955. Who's voice irritates you like fingernails on a blackboard? The chick in the toys r us ad

1956. What is your favorite plant? Tiger lilies

1957. What simple things in life do you appreciate? Senses, kisses, music

1958. Have you ever read a book by Tom Robbins? No

1959. Are you more of a maker and giver, or a taker and user? Maker and a giver.

1960. What do you contribute to society? My dysfunctional attitude

1961. Do you take naps? Occasionally

1962. Do you have any cavaties? Never

1963. What is the differance between art and fine art? Art is whatever you want it to be. I hate being an arts major.

1964. Do you believe that there has been a man on the moon? Yep.

1965. What music makes you so happy you could burst? The Academy Is…

1966. What do you think of the band They Might be Giants? They’re okay

1967. Would you ever go into a sex shop? I have been into many… hahahaha oh Amsterdam.

1968. If you had to choose would you rather go into a sex shop with your mom or your dad? Mom. They have things other than toys and porn you know…

1969. Do you buy holiday gifts early or at the last minute? All over the place really…

1970. What do you want to do today? Go to church, decorate cookies, cross-stitch. I sound like an old lady.

1971. You see a girl in a long ruffled off white dress carrying a bag painted with a sunflower and playing a ukelele while twirling around the cafeteria.
What is your first reaction? I’d want to go dance with her

Could you become friends with this girl? I love hippies.

1972. Let's just say your school team is on a winning streak. One of the cheerleaders cheers both for your team and the other team during games. Does it make you angry? I would probably punch her in the face for being an indecisive twat.

One day you ask her why she does it and she says that, "It's just so much fun, no matter who wins." What do you think of that? I think she should quit the cheerleading squad. A cheerleader is part of the team, if she is cheering on the enemy you should banish her.

1973. Do you laugh when there is no joke and dance when there is no music? Yes.

1974. What would the perfect pair of socks look like? Rainbows and fluffiness

1975. What is the longest you have ever gone with out sleeping? 3 days-sh.

1976. Have you ever had a hallucination? Probably

1977. Are you generally happy? No

1978. Are you a

sore loser? Yes

sore winner? Definitely.

1979. Were you an 80's baby? Yes

1980. What's in the room with you right now that you can't see? Pants.

1981. Do you ALWAYS thouroughly wash your hands after going to the bathroom? Next to always…

1982. If someone else were to describe you what would you hope they would say? I’m a dysfunctional mess with insane tendencies and am a shit ton of fun to hang out with because of it.

1983. What is the sound of one hand clapping? Silence.

1985. Do you prefer carnivals, festivals, circuses, parades or fairs? Fairs I think

1986. Are you useful? Depends.

1987. Are you a:

bitch? yes

lover? yes

child? yes

mother/father? Not yet

sinner? Yes

saint? I can be.

1988. What is the dirtiest habit you can think of? Cigarettes.

1989. What kind of person will you ABSOLUTELY never date? A hobo.

1990. What were you doing at ten fifteen last saturday night? Playing board games

1991. Do you ever need 'quiet time'? All the time.

1992. What are you made of? Sugar, electricity and social awkwardness topped with an incessant need to be by the ocean.

1993. What does 'you are what you eat' really mean? It means if you eat a lot of fat, you’re fat. Deal.

1994. What was the last thing you counted? stitches

1995. Do you think it is harder for a parent to outlive their child or for the child to lose a parent? The first. But both suck.

1996. Do you believe in psychic ability or is it a sham? Sham.

1997. What is your favorite classic rock song? Wish You Were Here – Pink Floyd

1998. Who are you anyway? You’re worst nightmare.

1999. When are you the most insecure? Around people I don’t know

2000. Who would your fantasy threesome involve? William Beckett times 2.

Would you fall apart if that last person you kissed died?
No. Right now I hate him SO much I could kill him myself.

Would you date someone who lived in another state?
Yes.

When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?
Today

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
I can guarantee it

Do you laugh a lot?
Yeah I do.

What are the bad things you've heard people say about you?
Clingy, obnoxious, loud, over-emotional…

Who did you spend your summer with last year?
Parents, Garrett, Aaron, Pacsun people…

Do you have an older brother?
No

How was your last night and why?
Umm it was intense, I was an emotional mess and I can’t really explain why

Do you believe in karma?
Sure

Did you have a good birthday this year?
Sure

Last person you told a secret to?
Alexa maybe.

How many true friends do you have?
A few

Have you ever caught a friend cheating on their bf/gf?
Yeah, just today in fact. I don’t think we can be friends anymore.

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
No

What mood are you in right now?
Really terrible and pissed off and upset and just horrible.

Is your room ever clean?
Hardly

What did you and the last person you talked on the phone talk about?
My phone bill.

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yes… just hugs you know.

In the past week, have you cried?
Yes

How many kids do you want to have?
2 or 3

At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?
Listening to music on my dad’s stereo and typing

When did you last eat chinese food?
Well, I ate Thai food about a week and a half ago. Close enough.

Anyone you were good friends with, that you no longer get along with?
Yes.

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Yes, a couple people. Mostly celebrities.

Have you ever kissed someone that was high?
Yes

Anything you are looking forward to?
Learning how to snowboard

Do you trust all your friends?
No

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
Yessssss

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
SO MUCH.

How many surveys will you do today?
Loads cuz I’m fucking bored and if I don’t occupy myself I might go insane

Is there someone you want to be with right now?
You, H; only you.

HARD
1. will you answer every question honestly?
Yes

2. Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high?
Yes

3. Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
No, but I’ve really wanted to

4. do you miss anything or anyone?
Every second of my life.

5. what makes you laugh no matter what?
Rozena

6. have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past five hours?
Nope.

7. who was the last person you talked to?
Dad.

8. what do you dislike at the moment?
YOU G. YOU YOU YOU GO FUCK YOURSELF.

HARDER [HARDER.]
1. do you get butterflies around the guys/girls you like?
Yes always. I always act like a complete fool…

2. do you think it is bad to have sex at your age?
No. Certainly not.

4. will you be doing drugs in the near future?
Probably.

5. do you lie about your age?
I have no reason to.

VERY PERSONAL
1. if you were to have sex right now would you use a condom?
Yes

2. are you happy with yourself?
No

3. would you change yourself for the person you love?
No, because he felt the same way for a while, but then he changed and I don’t know how to change for him.

4. what do you tell yourself when times get hard?
I’m hopeless.

SECRETS
1. when did you last cry?
Yesterday

2. do you believe in religion?
Yes

3. when was the last time you fell asleep with a member of the opposite sex?
2 weeks ago ish

4. what is currently on your mind?
How much of a prick G is and how much I want to destroy him.

5. did you ever wish a close friend to death?
No

6. has a guy ever seriously punched you more than once?
Yes

1. have you done bad things with your parents near by?
Yes

2. have you started a horrible rumor about somebody?
No.

3. did you ever fail the school year?
No

4. have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs?
Yes

5. have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night?
Yes

6. do you think your future will be a good one?
I fucking hope so

THE DEEP STUFF
1. Do you think you were raised well?
Yes

2. Do you have a secret that you’ve never told ANYONE?
Yes

3. How do you handle stress?
Scream, run, listen to music, play music, cease to function

4. How would you spend your last day alive?
Enjoying it, telling my friends and family I love them. The important ones.

5. Do you hide things?
Yes.

6. If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which side would you choose?
True love.

7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with?
Probably my mom, she would need me the most. I could never really choose definitively.

8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you choose?
I really don’t want to answer this question.

9. Do you think you could ever forgive someone who murdered a family member?
No.

10. What is the worst thing you’ve ever done that your parents DON’T know about?
Nothing really.

[HARDEST]
1. Do you think you know the meaning of love?
No

2. The last time you kissed someone… was it someone you see yourself with?
Not anymore.

3. If your parents didn’t like the person you were dating, would you lose them?
No.

THE RANDOM STUFF
1. Do you spend time with the same people always.. or new people?
Different people, not necessarily new, not necessarily the same.

2. Do you think best friends can be replaced?
Yes. M is proof.

3. Are you the type that would rather stay at other people’s houses or have them at yours?
Stay at theirs.

4. When is the last time you were truly happy with your life?
When I was with H. There were still flaws, but I was so happy.

5. Where was your default facebook picture taken?
Seaside Oregon, on this beach we surfed

6. Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it?
My parents = exhibit A. Yes.

7. What is your favorite color?
Green.

8. What do you do when you have a bad day?
Music, cry, talk to friends, hot shower, sleep.

9. Do you believe exes can really ever be “just friends”?
Yes.

10. Who texted you last?
Monica

11. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
My momma a couple hours ago

12. If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?
Not completely. I would like to eliminate some of it.

14. Are you quick to start a fight?
Arguments, yes. Fights, no.

15. Do your parents really know YOU?
No. Not really, they don’t know much about my life.

16. Lyrics stuck in your head?
Bad Romance – Lady Gaga. AGGHHHHH

17. Are you tired?
Yes.

20. Last time you walked farther than one block?
Hmm a couple days ago maybe?


OFF THE WALL QUESTIONS
1. What Curse Word Do You Use The Most?
Shit or fuck. I like fuck.

2. Do You Own An iPod?
Yeah it’s dying.

3. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
No

4. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?
Regular

5. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
A couple weeks ago… OMG withdrawal

6. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
Yes.

7. Is Anyone In Love With You?
No. Not that I’m aware.

8. Ever Cry In Public?
Yes.

9. Are You Currently Wanting Any Piercings Or Tattoo?
Belly ring, more earrings, tattoo on my ribcage.

10. Whats The Weather Like?
Rainy, windy, stormy…

11. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
Sure

13. Do You Use Sarcasm?
Always.

14. Do you get along better with the same sex or opposite?
Opposite

15. Do You Watch The News?
Pretty much never

16. How Did You Get One Of Your Scars?
My friend attempted to push me into a swimming pool and my foot went through a plastic drain

17. Who was the last person to make you mad?
G.

18. Do You Like Anybody?
I'm not sure.

I used to adore this series. I will read it again some day.

I like these best.

One of the best nights of my life. The best concert I've ever experienced and my faaavourite band. And one of my favourite photos I've taken :)

3 things that make me happiest; friends/family, surfing, and music.