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Medieval Times!!!

FINALLY!!!! For as long as I was in high school,I'd always wanted to go to Medieval Times & tonight I finally got to go. My b.f. took me as a late V-day gift. T'was amazing-I was part of the red knight's clan.

Oh yeah~

Here I sit at my new comp at 1:25am, eating cheerios & watching porn. How I ever got along without this comp, I'll never know.

hmmm

Looks like I'll be posting more and more here since I have a new comp all to myself. Hmmm-I may be going to this artwalk soon. Very soon~~` I've never been, and me holding myself as an artist, i feel i should head out there.

god I love L.A.

gettin' the itch

I've always had a drive to explore-but it feels I'm lying when I say that, otherwise I'd be halfway across the globe right now, exploring wherever I may. Like a stray cat, I've just always wanted to let myself flow wherever people and events might take me.

FInally!!!!!!!!!!

I'm finally going to see Zombieland today. I wanted to see this for a LONG time. Seeing as how my b.f. works at a movie theater-I thought I'd see this one right away like most films. But I have no idea why this one took so long.

But finally!!!

Also-I'm finally getting a pc of my very own. I have my eyes on this "Asus" brand which seems pretty reliable and at a reasonable price. Comes with a 6GB memory & 750gb hard drive. Any thoughts or suggestions on this plan?

at the apple store

Tags: Apple

SO....I'm at the apple store at Victoria GArdens. Shit....this might bring me over to the dark side. I know I sound like a shitty ad too cuz of it. I'm on a laptop that just uses my fingertips to scroll, go back or forth a page...& probably more that I don't know about yet.

Oh yeah-about to see Sherlock Holmes & just finished some Arbys......

God I'm a corporate whore.

We have all seen this

The world stares at me & I stare at the world. I see that the world stares at me , & I see it yelling madly at me. I see it all turning and mashing. I see the world whirling & burning. I see the world afraid just as I am to see it so like this. I see the space around us all with nothing to fill it, nothing that cares about any of it. I see it all twirling & yearning. I see it all scared & lost & so sad. I wish I didn't see that I'm still on it.

Maybe...

Someday you will find me caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne Supernova in the sky....

God I Hated High School

Why are all the stupid fucks hitting me up on facebook now? All the people I didn't care about, didn't talk to, that weren't even nice to me are ALL adding me as their friend on facebook now. Like we were best friends in the good ol' days? I wanna ask them "Oh really now-lets see...it was fun when we-oh yeah, didn't do that together, or how about-oh yeah, not that either.....how about when i was crying all by myself on my 17th birthday-oh that's right>you weren't there!"

P.s.-I love you melo. You let me vent.

wishes

If i won the lottery that'd be pretty freakin' sweeeeet.....there are these houses not too far up in the hills that look like damn near mansions. Like fortresses in a little patch of woods themselves.
Oh yeah-there was a double shooting just a few blocks from here. West Covina always makes the news in the worst ways.

the truth

Insecure boys become sweet men.
Asshole kids become jerk guys.

the way i feel....

Stayed in bed all morning just to pass the time
There's something wrong here, there can be no denying
One of us is changing
Or maybe we just stopped trying

And it's too late, baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died
And I can't hide and I just can't fake it

It used to be so easy living here with you
You were light and breezy and I knew just what to do
Now you look so unhappy and I feel like a fool

And it's too late, baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died
And I can't hide and I just can't fake it

There'll be good times again for me and you
But we just can't stay together, don't you feel it, too
Still I'm glad for what we had and how I once loved you

But it's too late, baby, now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died and I can't hide
And I just can't fake it

-Carole King

well then....there ya go

remember that rave I went to? The tvbox said it was a bit of burning man brought to L.A. once a year for that night. I always wanted to go to burning man-but the hardcoreness stopped me....cuz I don't feel so hardcore without funds. But yeah-I'll make plans for this again next year.

oh shiZ..

How did I manage to forget to tell about how I went to a rave this past Saturday night. At least that's what they told me. It was held by LA Decompression. Fuckin' amazing. Saw some new things, heard some new tunes. All was a good time.......until some friends of mine had a huge fight right before I went home.

new Shoes

It's been a while since I had lace-ups.

feelings

sO i remembered some comics, cartoons & songs from way back when. It made me feel so nostalgic. I feel that's a problem with me though that I've been working hard to fix. I used to feel SOOOO overwhelmingly nostalgic with everything i did & the present would get so fuzzy and never be enjoyed....But I've done good to not remember alot from the past. Alot of things hurt. I'll let myself indulge like any other person;remembering an old fad,an stupid trend-but that's all I'll let my mind wander.
I worried that telling myself I don't remember in order to forget the past would actually make my memory bad. I feel like a part of my mind went somewhere lately-let me know if you find it. But I've learned not to overreact & control my emotions. Yeah....that's it.

I was remembering that 'For better or for worse' cartoon, that 9 chickweed comic, and some blue october songs i listened to alot.

I've been biking down my devious path

I bike to see him. I bike to be around him. A result-i'm actually enjoying biking. Even though the other does not like this. I see the world the way the biker does. It's all fleeting and fast, so just enjoy the moment you have in front of you.

I'm my own worst enemy

It's 1am-i have to get up at 8:30, and here I am....sitting at this computer googling up things my mother might dis-own me for......Oh well.

i hate this

i hate my work. I hate the insecure feelings that pop up with my bf once a month. I hate my school & everything i have to complete or else I can't get any further.


But i do love you dear melo-it's where you let me vent.

what to do~~~~

This is me wondering what to do. Even with all the problems I see around me, I still get these long periods of 'what should i do' instead of fixing my problems.
Oh yeah-I'm wearing some Urban Decay. I never really wear makeup, but it looked cool.

yup yup yup

Sitting at the comp when all the friends are outside talking & socializing. Maybe I should too? I've never been too good at that. I think I'm just tired from feeling so financially fucked.

Is anybody else this weird?

I jack off to the ending of "Requiem for a Dream". Does anybody do that? Am I so off?

COmiCon2009

Just got back & oh man, what a fuckin' blast. Check it out-Tv people caught me for a smidge ,I'm at 1:34

San Diiiiieeeegoooo

I leave to the land of Diego this Wednesday-maybe Tuesday night if I can. I'll be attending Comicon, & meet the gods of my world. I'll meet a few celebrities too if all goes well~~~ I'm gonna be an old-style cat woman. Ya know, spandex instead of leather or pleather. I'll try to be on G4's live broadcast of it if I can. They always have a mob surrounding their live feed.

The beach

I went to the beach yesterday. I went with a friend I had not talked to in a while. He was a friend I had found in high school in my loneliest times. We grew together as best friends would. Then the real world came and when we thought our worlds would split, we ended up going to the same school. We grew even closer more & more like we would, but becoming a man & woman. I saw him for a different person than what i first saw. It was a magical moment in my eyes. I saw something so unique, probably very ordinary, but something so new to me. It was much more inviting than the love I had experienced before. Then my foolish eyes and strained heart leaped into his arms.
I saw an entire splendid future before me, and with him by my side. He'd been by my side so many times, it was a shock when suddenly....he wasn't there. He'd been holding back, and his own heart was torn and troubled.
My whole world ripped;the pages torn and windows crashed. What I thought I knew of love and life had been a stupid joke. I tried my best ......I couldn't even imagine....the things that happened...that great ache...and I was told it was all for the best.
My sincere doubt about the greater good grew into an awful ache, then confusion matched with tears, then finally ...angered insanity. I knew what it was I wanted, & I wanted him. I tore and completely destroyed a relationship that was already so fragile as the brittle leaves in autumn. And just like those same brittle leaves, our relationship crumbled away. No words spoken between us, not even a hint of each other's recognition of the other one's life.

Then I called him up the other day & said " Hey.....Panida is having that beach bonfire"
Him:"..yeah...I was gonna go...but I don't have a ride"
Me: "Yeah...that's why I called...do you want me to give you a ride?"
Him : "Yeah. Sure. Thanks. Just come by my house then when I'm ready"

And just like all the problems had been a bad dream, all the pain and the tears and terrible words were just forgotten for a day. We played in the ocean, lay across the sand, talked amongst a blazing fire. It was all magic.
It was my magical day at the beach.

Nature stuff

SO the black bunny & the white bunny have settled their arguments for a better day, & created 4 little grey sausages. ...




Shit-Soon they'll all be singing "Kumbaya" by the millions.

fuckin' shitzu

I hate this little republican devil at school. I don't know why the others hang around here-she goes against everything we believe in. Maybe because when we make a jab at her, she keeps coming back for more. She's retarded that way. We can't just 'say' anything without her trying to debate it. Goddamn bitch......

Oh shiz

~ Late night meals are FUNmazing~

A way out?

So I've been feeling down about my life alot lately-mainly the fact that I've been going to a 2 yr college for almost 5 years now....>.>....& I'm not getting any younger. I know I'm only 22-but I feel like I'm 30, & losing my youth.

Anywho-i feel bad for not making anything of my life so far. All I do is jump from job to job, just taking crap classes at Sac.

Then I thought-'why not make something of my life by relating the situation to high school?'

Now I feel back when I was 17, but with an infinite amount of knowledge on how to get my life going. So i feel like I'm on the verge of graduating, & have this great new optimism-I hope it lasts long enough.

In Dreams

I close my eyes
& I drift away
into the magic night
I softly say

A silent prayer
like dreamers do
Then I fall asleep to dream
My dreams of you.....

In dreams I walk with you
In dreams I talk to you
In dreams you're mine
All of the time

We're together ...
in dreams..

-Roy Orbison's "in dreams"

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animegirl's picture
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hey there.

crying_soul's picture
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halo

evan's picture
Re: Oh yeah~

just don't switch hands on accident. that could cause problems.

evilone's picture
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Hello from the random tour

evan's picture
Re: gettin' the itch

the urge to explore is all about exploring, not skipping over the little things. i don't understand how anyone gets halfway around the world without feeling like they've missed something along the way.

kornzilla2k1's picture
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true story! yeah the zombies are just a distraction from the real enemy... man. the war in our hearts never end.

evan's picture
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zombies aren't the enemy. zombies are an environmental hazard. other survivors are more likely to be the enemy. even if they're neutral/friendly toward us, they may likely dismantle our barricades and otherwise accidentally sabotage our plans. need to establish contact early and maintain or risk being seen as hostile by potential LMOE psychos. need to identify possible LMOE delusionists early and keep track of them. no need to terminate if our efforts can be routed around threatened zones.

i had another great idea for a zombie killing weapon. shotclub. basically a medium sized club with a shotgun shell sized nook near the end. short (cutoff), double spring, firing pin assembly inside rigged to rock back and forth on impact. can be modified in downtime to have several firing ports with pins held immobile unless a release is held (or released) at the handle. could be modified, with enough time/salvaged equipment to house a spring-loaded magazine for heavy environmental modification (imagine the effect it would have on a locked door) without having to reload when the situation inevitably changes during scavenge/salvage runs.

things evan thinks about........

kornzilla2k1's picture
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evan is my zombie fighting partner in crime. if killing zombies is ever a crime we would be guilty. he has taught me well about our undead friends or umm enemies.

kornzilla2k1's picture
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love zombieland!

xxresponsiblexx's picture
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:D did you enjoy zombieland? i laughed my butt off at that movie.

evan's picture
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zombieland rock-diddly-ocks.

animegirl's picture
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Yeah-it was alot more awesome than I had intended. I freakin' love Robert Downey Jr.

evan's picture
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sherlock holmes is awesome. they totally did it right.

and apple seems to be having good ideas lately. i'm sure as soon as i give them all of my money someone else will come out with way better stuff but it's working well enough now.

...except for the ironic feeling i get when i crash my iphone and my vista machine works smoothly and with very rare issue.

starlightconlon's picture
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i love that FPA.
melo is perfect for venting. it's home.

sweetsixteen's picture
Re: God I Hated High School

Ugh! I feel the same way. All of a sudden everyone from high school is on facebook!?!? If I wanted to talk to them I would have kept in touch.

hoshi_asuko's picture
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Coolio.

letteminakai's picture
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Sailor Moon is my favorite too :D

animegirl's picture
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a little bit of Pink Floyd-and some other crazy thoughts-but mostly pink floyd

animegirl's picture
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I wanna say sailormoon cuz it's my first, but.....I really love Cowboy Bebop

i_am_especial's picture
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your art reminds me of Osamu Tezuka's style.

myownweaknesses's picture
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Well, its great. You're welcome. Sometimes inspiration comes out like that, no physical inspiration needed. :) I use to draw, sometimes I miss it. I just don't do that much drawing anymore.

sara's picture
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I cried alone on my 16th birthday. My mom ordered pizza delivered to the school for all my "friends" but no one showed up. I ate it alone, with the whole pizza box on my lap, crying, and I do believe it was raining.

And that was when my inner-emo was born.

aximilli's picture
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I agree whole-heartedly

mikesmaddie's picture
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I just wanted to say that your front page art is amazing. :).

amee's picture
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LOL. I love how you worded this, and I especially love how it really is waht it is...

I didn't actually join FB for that same reason, why have a second social site where people are just adding random people and every other month leave a comment saying "hey how're things going?" and I always find myself going "oh good, you?" and that's that. Myspace to me turned out to be "who's the most popular" person and I found myself being added to people i didn't even know nor talk to before. It was just a race of popularity thru the internet -_-;

anyway, kudos to you, and your art was amazing <3
Bangs n touches for you <3

peppy132's picture
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FPA amazballs!!!!

hoshi_asuko's picture
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Nice FPA! What was your inspiration?

mattfayray's picture
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ugly ass bitches

horror_factor_x's picture
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Hey, dig the front page art, good stuff.

letteminakai's picture
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Awesome picture on the front page :D

P.S. and I have to ask, since your s/n is animegirl... what's your favorite anime?

animegirl's picture
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oh cool-thanks. Yeah, i drew it. I'm one of those artist that can't pin-point an inspiration-i just know it came out of me.

myownweaknesses's picture
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I wanted to say that I really liked your art thats on the front page. It speaks out, and i think its awesome. I don't know if you drew it or not, but if you did, your very talented, I like that the drawing shows so many things. Means so many things. the emotion behind it. Its beautiful. Thanks for submitting it.

evan's picture
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Hahaha I was right there with you. That's where I were when you were getting high.

evan's picture
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i know, right!?

that's why i'm still resisting facebook like the old man i am.

cheeko101's picture
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By the way, about your poll I voted love is real. Because we all feel it at a time, we all see it in our hearts. I might sound too aesthetic, But I know for a fact love is real. <3

cheeko101's picture
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I got to give you my touches and bangs here, because I am in high school, and I know I'll be saying this in about 5 years. I've been an independent loner for the four years, but still manage to go to senior activities by myself. Beinf the wierdo of all time. lol

Love this post. Thanks for posting.

slayerized's picture
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haha same crap happened with me...all these shit talkers and stuff from highschool adding me on facebook, they need to be popular again somehow I guess!

ween's picture
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I understand completely about high school. I don't like seeing all the people I hated and went to high school with in my "friend" suggestions. If I wanted them, I'd add them. Assholes...

evan's picture
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that's so true.

evan's picture
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friends fighting at a rave is weaksauce.

i hope you behaved yourself.

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