dreams
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i had a dream last night that i wish was real.
It was cut into two scenes.
First scene: I was rummaging through my 10,000+ galore of purses and found a hundred dollar bill, and i kept digging through other purses and kept finding more money.. ! it was amazing. It turned black.
Second scene: It then cut into the second scene and i was somehow in a ferris wheel with favv. just him and i, and the ride was seriously going extreeemely fast. SO fast, and the weird part was, was that ..i wasn't scared. I was laughing, really genuinely, raw fully, blissfully Laughing. Like i was real & happy. & i remember as we were raging through the wind, the blurring yellow & iridescent lights, the smell of innocent freedom.., i had thoughts in my head running at the same time like how much my life really wasn't that bad at all, that everything, everyone had a special meaning in my life, and that it was truly appreciated and thought to myself, "I wouldn't trade this for the world."
It was cut into two scenes.
First scene: I was rummaging through my 10,000+ galore of purses and found a hundred dollar bill, and i kept digging through other purses and kept finding more money.. ! it was amazing. It turned black.
Second scene: It then cut into the second scene and i was somehow in a ferris wheel with favv. just him and i, and the ride was seriously going extreeemely fast. SO fast, and the weird part was, was that ..i wasn't scared. I was laughing, really genuinely, raw fully, blissfully Laughing. Like i was real & happy. & i remember as we were raging through the wind, the blurring yellow & iridescent lights, the smell of innocent freedom.., i had thoughts in my head running at the same time like how much my life really wasn't that bad at all, that everything, everyone had a special meaning in my life, and that it was truly appreciated and thought to myself, "I wouldn't trade this for the world."
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I'm sorry for the harm I've caused,
everything just backfires in the most unusual ways.
i guess this is your way of retaliating.
well, it worked, and you know what,
i can def. say that you've made a very large impact on me
and how i handle things as far as relationships go.
Large impact, meaning you've changed me for the better.
i havent been this hurt in so long, i guess when i was hurt for the first time,
i completely let all things go..
my faith, my ambition, my trust, & love for anyone who would come near.
This time around, i guess ive grown in the process.
i guess change is inevitable. and its finally time to do so,.
i thank you, dearly. and i hope, wish and pray nothing but sunshine to you.
i hope you know that i love(d) you completely. you, amongst them all, knew me,. its rare.
it just hurts because time doesn't cooperate, as goes in most cases.
i'll wait for you here.
& baby this could have been all different if you wanted it to be.
always, jo.
everything just backfires in the most unusual ways.
i guess this is your way of retaliating.
well, it worked, and you know what,
i can def. say that you've made a very large impact on me
and how i handle things as far as relationships go.
Large impact, meaning you've changed me for the better.
i havent been this hurt in so long, i guess when i was hurt for the first time,
i completely let all things go..
my faith, my ambition, my trust, & love for anyone who would come near.
This time around, i guess ive grown in the process.
i guess change is inevitable. and its finally time to do so,.
i thank you, dearly. and i hope, wish and pray nothing but sunshine to you.
i hope you know that i love(d) you completely. you, amongst them all, knew me,. its rare.
it just hurts because time doesn't cooperate, as goes in most cases.
i'll wait for you here.
& baby this could have been all different if you wanted it to be.
always, jo.
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I dont possibly know how i can rectify the harm that ive caused you.
The truth of the matter is, being with you is the only time I am happy.
My whole life was a joke,
I prided myself not taking joy in other people's misery. It finally backfired.
I succeeded in hurting the first person i loved.
The truth of the matter is, being with you is the only time I am happy.
My whole life was a joke,
I prided myself not taking joy in other people's misery. It finally backfired.
I succeeded in hurting the first person i loved.
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me: "what do you want to tell me?"
him: "i could fall in love with you."
me: ::shakes head:: (and i hide that i'm flattered)
thats what i remember from my dream last night.
him: "i could fall in love with you."
me: ::shakes head:: (and i hide that i'm flattered)
thats what i remember from my dream last night.
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the other day, i kept having this recurrent dream where i'd keep waking up in my dream, and doing my routinely duties (brushing my teeth, washing my face, walking to the refrigerator, etc, etc.) but it was strange because i was still asleep, and i kept thinking in my head, "oh, joanna, youre just dreaming" so i'd go back to sleep in my dream, but then i'd keep waking up in it. and when i finally woke up in reality i thought it was still a dream, i felt trapped. its confusing, but i think you get the idea.
maybe i was lucid dreaming again? it was like having a dream within a dream, within a dream. have i lost you? i think so. anyway, stay tuned for more AMAZING dream stories with Joanna.. ;)
maybe i was lucid dreaming again? it was like having a dream within a dream, within a dream. have i lost you? i think so. anyway, stay tuned for more AMAZING dream stories with Joanna.. ;)
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