Well I’m back. My computer still is kaput. I’m stuck to my sisters til; I can get a new one. But I do have all day Internet access, cause I hooked this one up to my own phone line. I’m just amazed that my mother let me drill a hole in her floor to pass the phone cord through.

On OoP, I just have one thing to say. OH MY GOD. I won’t say who died, but I will say that I wasn’t expecting it at all, and I sniffled to the end of the book after that. Oh and I love Ginny and Luna Lovegood! The release party was kind of a disappointment. I was like one of 9 adults dressed up and one out of about 4 people who put a lot of thought and work into said costume. I was supposed to be Ginny but my hair wasn’t red enough, by then it’d faded to reddish brown, so I kinda teased my hair out and made it bushy and went as Hermionie. Maybe I’ll get my film developed and post pictures of my costume.

I’m gonna go now since I have some stuff to get too, tata.

Sorry I haven’t been updating, but my computer died on me. On doing this from my sis’s which is on the main phone line. so I have limited online time.

Vegas was really fun. Did lots of stuff. The best part was Cirque du Soliel. Didn’t really gamble. only about 3 bucks. Being 21 doesn’t feel any different, except for the fact that I can legal drink the stuff my family’s been letting me for about a year.

Really good news is that my cold is going away. Well I’ve got to go. lots of stuff to do today.

Oy I’m tired. But I feel much better then I did last time I updated. spending time with people you love uplifts your attitude muchly.

Spent all day with me mummy yesterday. We took her out to dinner and then I helped her plant flowers in the garden. I even have a li’l garden spot in my window well. Some pansies, violas, wildflowers, and a patch of Irish moss. When I open my window my room smells green*g*.

We also went shopping and I got a cute two piece swimsuit. It’s all blue with daisies all over it. I also got a pair of white terrycloth shorts cause I hate the way my thunder thighs look coming out the legs of the bottom.

Well I’m off to bed. Oh and Adina, I’ll email you tomorrow. I’ll actually have time (aka I won’t have 4 hours of Ironing to do anymore)

I finally, finally, finally finished Fellowship of the Ring. And only on my 4th try too:P. I really tried to read it when I bought the boxed set last year, but other authors kept calling to me. I just can’t say no when a new Mercedes Lackey, David Eddings, or Lois McMaster Bujold comes out. Now I just have get through the Two Towers and Return of the King before June 21st or all will be lost and I’ll have to start over again after I’ve read Order of the Phoenix at least twenty times.


ONLY ONE MORE WEEK TIL I’M FULLY AND COMPLETELY LEGAL IN ALL 5O STATES TO DO ALL THE REALLY FUN STUFF

Here I am, back from the land of the dead. Lets just say that real life has been very demanding. Oh and that paxil withdrawal is not fun.

I dyed my hair red again. I finally found out why I couldn’t keep a different colour in my hair for longer then two weeks. It seems that although I have some what fine/thin hair. I have a whole lot of it. It takes two bloody expensive bottles to get my hair coloured.

I will be very glad when my b-day comes. I’m going to vegas that weekend with my family. We’re staying at the Excalibur, and we’ll be doing the jousting diner. I’m also planning on seeing Cirque du Soleil . I’m also going to see just how bad I’ll suck at gambling. :p

I’m also learning the joys of home improvement. We’ve been redoing the bathroom for almost 6 months now. We’re almost finished. We’re just getting started on the doors to the vanity, and will soon be doing the mirror. I will be so glad when it’s done. Then maybe we can do something about the messed up room we call a kitchen.

and I think that I’ll end this entry. I’m starving and need to go looking for some food.

Looks like I’m making up for a week of almost no posting in one night. Just posting lyrics to songs that struck me lately.

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Tired, Toby Keith
My name is Jackson, I was named after my father
Followed in his footsteps, down here to this factory
I ain`t complainin`, wouldn`t waste my breath to bother
This work ain`t hard, it`s only borin` as can be

Married Rebecca back in seventy-seven
I still love her and I guess she loves me too
We go to church on Sundays `cause we want to go to heaven
Me and my family, ain`t that how you`re supposed to do

But I`m tired, Lord I`m tired
Life is wearin` me smooth down to the bone
No rest for the weary, ya just move on
Tired, Lord I`m tired

I`ve only missed six days in nigh on twenty years o` work
The money went to taxes and these bills I`ve paid on time
The raise I got two months ago don`t meet the cost o` living
Selling my body for these nickels and these dimes

The smell of Becky`s coffee rolled me out of bed this morning
I showered and shaved and dressed and pulled my work boots on
Walked in the kitchen, she was starin` out the window
The way she said good morning made me ask is something wrong

She said I`m tired, woke up tired
Life is wearin` me smooth down to the bone
No rest for the weary, ya just move on
I guess you just keep goin` till your gone

Tired, Lord I`m tired
Tired, Lord I`m tired
~This song sums up perfectly how I’ve been feeling lately~
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No-One But You (Only The Good Die Young)
Words and music by Brian May

A hand above the water
An angel reaching for the sky
Is it raining in heaven -
Do you want us to cry?

And everywhere the broken-hearted
On every lonely avenue
No-one could reach them
No-one but you

One by one
Only the Good die young
They’re only flying too close to the sun
And life goes on -
Without you...

Another Tricky Situation
A get to drowin’ in the Blues
And I find myself thinkin’
Well - what would you do?

Yes! - it was such an operation
Forever paying every due
Hell, you made a sensation
You found a way through - and

One by one
Only the Good die young
They’re only flyin’ too close to the sun
We’ll remember -
Forever...

And now the party must be over
I guess we’ll never understand
The sense of your leaving
Was it the way it was planned?

And so we grace another table
And raise our glasses one more time
There’s a face at the window
And I ain’t never, never sayin’ goodbye...

One by one
Only the Good die young
They’re only flyin’ too close to the sun
Cryin’ for nothing
Cryin’ for no-one
No-one but you
~I know I’ve posted these lyrics before, but I never tire of this song~
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With these Hands, The Civil War(musical)
Look at these hands
They are battle scarred and weary
And they’re achin’ for the one thing
That can heal the pain
For the feel of you at sundown
Runnin’ fire through my veins

Look at these hands
they’ve been holdin’ on an prayin’
And they’re trembling for your quiet, easy touch
Look at theses hands reaching out for th e man I love too much

Come to me now
Whisper secrets soft and low
Lay here beside me
Darlin’ don’t let me go

With these hands I could hold you forever
With this heart I will always be true
Just like God in his heaven
May you always be there
Every time that these hands reach for you

Look at these eyes
They have seen so many devils
They can hardly recognize the angel here
I only know that when I look in your eyes
You calm all my fears
We’ve got tonight
Darlin’ we can’t ask for more
Just hold me tight
Leave the world outside the door

With these eyes I could see you forever
With this heart I will always be true
Like the stars in the heavens
My love will be there
Every time that these eyes look at you

With these hands
With these eyes
With this heart
I’ll be there
I’ll be there

With these hands I could hold you forever
With this heart I will always be true
Just like God in his heaven
May you always be there
Every time that these hands reach for you
Just like God in his heaven
My love will be there
Every time that these hands reach for you
Every time that these hands reach for you
~I just really love this song, so loving, but yet so sad~
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The Glory, The Civil War(musical)
NORTH:
The Bugle calls us to the line
From the mists of the long ago
See how the battle sabers shine
And the shadows the flags all throw
For the glory
For a land forever free
for the better part of me
For the glory
For the words we hold so dear
Let us give the last full measure
Gathered here
For the glory

SOUTH:
The time to stand has come at last
The the Drums start the long, long roll
The bridge is burned, the die is cast
To his grace I commend my soul
For the Glory
For the Dixie that I know
For the way of life we cherish
Let us die or let us go
For the Glory
For the home we hold so dear
Let us give the last full measure
Gathered here
For the glory

ANGEL:
Sleep in my arms now
All your pain is past
Sleep for you have travelled far
Now you are home at last
Go as you came here
Time to say goodbye
Rise, Soft as a lullaby
The fields are green
The rivers all run clear
And ho, so far from here
Reast for a while now
All your work is done
Rest here in my witing arms
Now that your race is run

ALL:
For the Glory
For the men who’ve gone before
For the men who will come after
We will fight this bloody war
For the Glory
For the truth we hold so dear
Let us give the last full measure
Gathered here
For the Glory
~Just a really powerfull song, expcialiy with a full choir~
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That’s all for tonight folks, my hands are starting to shake. Not a good sign.

Gah! being sick is absolutly no fun. I just spent a great portion of the past week sleeping, and when not sleeping feeling miserable. Oh well, I’m all better now. Nothing really earthshattering whent on this week.
My bloody car won’t start again, I don’t know if it’s gonna pass inspection, and it was due for relicensing last month. I don’t bloodly well need another ticket. The bloody first one is still on my record and I don’t have the money to pay for it.
Also I really want to go to Nimbus 2003, but don’t have the money for that either. I’m just feeling, I don’t know, tired is the only word I can think of.
I’d like to go back to school, but I missed the deadline, and I really don’t feel like going through regestration again. I left it too long and I’ll have to resubmit myself again, for everything.
I guess it’s just hard to look forward to stuff when everything fun gets canceled. And on top of all this, everytime I try to call my dad to talk to him, he almost yells at me. I’m an intrution in his life, but when he wants to talk to me, he expects me to drop everything. I sometimes long for my childhood when we looked like a normal family.
I thin that I’ve finaly realized that this is cathatic. I can get everything off of my chest and stop worring about it. Like I’ve made an effort towards solving the problem just by admiting it.
Well that’s all I’m gonna say at the moment. I’m starting to type funny and my arms are still some what numb.
Toodle Pip.

Two different versions of my trademark logo

(Edit) The b&w one was too big, maybe I’ll resize it and post
it again, but at the moment I’m just too lazy.

Like my title says, I just found out one of the side effects of making them. I made them on sunday, and haven’t used the oven since. This morning when I was making breakfast, I found out that there is canola oil all over the bottom of the oven. And the way I found out is that halfway through backing biscuts the oven started smoking. Was very fun. I’m now waiting for the kitchen to de-smoke and the oven to cool before I start cleaning it.

I’ve been trying to figure out how to uplode my mp3 player software and it’s just not working. I want to put my music on it *pout*

Last night my sister flew in a rage just cause I made this dutch pudding, she yelled at my mom and at me, and then ran out of the house and drove of in her car. It’s getting so that I do’t want to be here anymore. It sucks living with her. My mom said that maybe I should ask my grandma if I could live with her. It would be a solution to the suff going on, but I don’t want my contac with my mom reduced ot occational visits and phone calls. She’s my very best friend. Understands me better then most of the people I know. And she’s always there for me. Since I turned 18 there have been very few times in which we’ve been at odds. Yes it would be wonderful get out of this angry atmosphere, but not really at that price. It just makes me so depressed. ever since her stupid boyfriend she’s been angry/depressed. And it always leaks into the rest of the family. I want to hurt her boyfriend badly, not only cause he’s caused all of this, but she’s my baby sister, I’m suppost to be able to protect her from all that.

Well that’s the end of my very depressing entry today

hey whoever reads these things. I don’t really see why my inane ramblings about my sucky life can be enjoyable, but to each his own.

I don’t have much to say this entry. I’ve been looking for a job, haven’t found one yet. tis way things seem to happen for me. I don’t feel well, I hate being sick. And I’m too tired to write any more so I’m gonna go now, just posted to let people know that I’m not dead.

I just wanted to post some song lyrics that jumped out at me today while I was listening to my Mp3’s

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Jealousy
Tommy Shaw

I open the door
I turn on the lights
I can feel it in my bones
Something just isn’t right

The room smells like a cigarette
Your hair looks a mess
And didn’t you think I’d notice
All the wrinkles in your dress

When I look in your eyes
I can tell something’s wrong
There’s no use in denying girl
I’ve known you too long

There’s something going on
I’m not sure what it is
But let me tell you
It’s my business if it’s his

Jealousy has got a hold on me
My foolish heart won’t let me be
I can almost see his face
As he’s kissing you
And I can’t control my jealousy

When you answer the phone
Are you really alone
It’s like I’m talking to a stranger
Do you think I don’t know

You say he’s just a friend
And I try my best to understand
But I’m a man and I know men
So don’t you ask me to pretend

I’m all for liberation
And I’m all for being fair
And I’m all for doing what it takes
To show how much I care

But you push me too far
Now it’s my back against the wall
And it’s no big surprise to you
There’s a limit after all

Jealousy has got a hold on me
My foolish heart won’t let it be
It looks like this must be my destiny
I can’t control my jealousy

Jealousy has got a hold on me
My foolish heart won’t let it be
I can move the biggest mountain girl
That much I can do
But I can’t control my jealousy
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Die With Your Boots On
Toby Keith

Daddy was a gambler
Back in seventy-two
He had a taste fro the nightlife and he
Loved his booze
he had a woman on one arm
And a tatto on the other
It was hard to read I don’t know what it said
Somethin’ about my mother

I stood over his shoulder back in bakersfield
He had some rhinestone boots with those high ridin’ heels
He bet a ton of money
On a hand I thought was dead
When those sevens cleaned the table up
He just looked around and said

Sometimes you win
Sometimes you won’t
Sometimes you beat that devil
Sometimes you don’t
We’re all just killin’ time
Til the good Lord calls us home
And the best that you can hope for is to die
With your boots on

I drive a big rig from shore to shore
I’ve got a woman beside me
And my name out on the door
Can’t make no money
If I don’t outrun the man
That’s why you find me streakin’ throught the night
Catch me if you can

Sometimes you win
Sometimes you won’t
Sometimes you beat that devil
Sometimes you don’t
We’re all just killin’ time
Til the good Lord calls us home
And the best that you can hope for is to die
With your boots on

Sometimes you win
Sometimes you won’t
Sometimes you beat that devil
Sometimes you don’t
We’re all just killin’ time
Til the good Lord calls us home
And the best that you can hope for is to die
With your boots on
With your boots on

Sometimes you win
Sometimes you won’t
Sometimes you beat that devil
Sometimes you don’t
We’re all just killin’ time
Til the good Lord calls us home
And the best that you can hope for is to die
With your boots on
With your boots on
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No-One But You (Only The Good Die Young)
Queen(Words and music by Brian May)

A hand above the water
An angel reaching for the sky
Is it raining in heaven -
Do you want us to cry?

And everywhere the broken-hearted
On every lonely avenue
No-one could reach them
No-one but you

One by one
Only the Good die young
They’re only flying too close to the sun
And life goes on -
Without you...

Another Tricky Situation
A get to drowin’ in the Blues
And I find myself thinkin’
Well - what would you do?

Yes! - it was such an operation
Forever paying every due
Hell, you made a sensation
You found a way through - and

One by one
Only the Good die young
They’re only flyin’ too close to the sun
We’ll remember -
Forever...

And now the party must be over
I guess we’ll never understand
The sense of your leaving
Was it the way it was planned?

And so we grace another table
And raise our glasses one more time
There’s a face at the window
And I ain’t never, never sayin’ goodbye...

One by one
Only the Good die young
They’re only flyin’ too close to the sun
Cryin’ for nothing
Cryin’ for no-one
No-one but you
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Who Wants To Live Forever
Queen

There’s no time for us
There’s no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
from us

Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever....?

There’s no chance for us
It’s all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us

Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?

Who dares to love forever?
When love must die

But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is our today
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Forever is our today

Who waits forever anyway?
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Forever Hasn’t Got Here Yet
Toby Keith

Girl whatcha talkin’ ’bout, I ain’t believin’ this
I ain’t settlin’ for none of this foolishness
We can’t let a sure thing drown in a puddle of doubt
It’s just somd rocky road but we’ve got solid ground
It’s just a little bump we can work around
We’ve got a lifetime ahead so don’t go quittin’ me now

Come on baby we’re still together
This ain’t as good as it’s gonna get
I swore I’d love you ’til the end of forever
And Forever hasn’t got here yet

Does it matter girl who’s really right or wrong
This ain’t the kinda thing we should sleep on
I say we start it all over tonight with a kiss
So lide over her mamma, it’s gonna be alright
Let’s write it off as just another angry night
I like it better when we’re makin’ up like this

Come on baby we’re still together
This ain’t as good as it’s gonna get
I swore I’d love you ’til the end of forever
And Forever hasn’t got here yet

Come on baby we’re still together
This ain’t as good as it’s gonna get
I swore I’d love you ’til the end of forever
And Forever hasn’t got here yet

I’ll still love you ’til the end of forever
And forever hasn’t got here yet
It hasn’t got here yet
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There was one more song that jumped out at me, but you just can’t post insturmental music. But if ya wanna know the last song is The Love Theme from Attack of the Clones by John Williams

Heyla, I’m back from vacation. I had much fun, and twas much relaxing.

I had this very long post and then my comp became stupid and I lost it all. I don’t know if I feel like typing it all again. I’ll try (ignores voice in her head that repeats yoda lines)

I tried to post here while I was gone, but my grandmother has the slowest ISP in the world. So slow that every time I tried to acces this page the conection timed out. She really needs to get a new one, soon.

Here’s a short(hopefuly) synopsis of what I did.
Sunday: woke up at 4:45, to leave at 5 cause stupid car has no a/c. after 5 hours of car torture arived at Boise, Idaho. unpacked, lazed about, then decided to go do annual check on property in Cascade. drove up there, had lunch drove back, had dinner.
Monday: Shopped, got some stuff, spent lots of time in mall. came home, napped then got ready for fancy dinner in fancy steakhouse for my mother’s b-day.
Tuesday: Took a long and somewhat boring back roads trip to see a ghost town called Stibnite. Saw lots of little towns, the abandonded mine belonging to the town, disintigrading house foundations, an the top of a moutain. But no Stibnite, we lost it. Unfortunatly, not uncommon in our family to happen. had 20$ Liverwerst sandwiches on top of said mountain, very expencive sandwiches.
Wednesday: Another back roads trip, this time to Idaho City, did arive there, got icecream, went home by way of a dirt road, visited old camping spots, saw lots of fish.
Thursday: More shopping. Experenced Idaho construction, laughed at an Excursion that couldn’t merge. Cheered on the truck that wouldn’t let him cheat by getting ahead of us all in line. Highlight of the day
Friday: Even more shopping, then trip back to SLC at about 6pm. Spent 6 hours in the car, got home at midnight, ate, unpacked somewhat, and then slept

As it is Monday, I will do my book of the week
Death on the Nile, by Agatha Christie.
Linnet Doyle is young, beautiful, and rich. She’s the girl who has everything- including the man her best friend loves. Linnet and her new husband take a cruise on the Nile, where they meet the brilliant detective Hercule Poirot. It should be an idyllic trip, yet Poirot had a vague, uneasy feeling that something is dangerously amiss...

Well that’s all I feel like typing right now.
Love and other indoor sports
Ali Kat

Another random title, that’s a line from "The Scarlet Pimpernel, the musical" for anyone who’s curious.

I haven’t updated in a while, that’s cause I’ve been spending such wonderful time in a hospital waiting room. I just love having to be the driver for my mom cause she can’t drive after surgery. The stinkin’ place is super cold, I can’t find the cafeteria, I always get lost, and it’s so depressing there.

It would’ve been better but then my batteries died 3 hours into the thing with about 4 more hours to go. I always have the sucky things happen to me. Oh well it could’ve been worse, I could have not brought the book and crossword puzzles that I did. Even if I didn’t have any pain killers with much need of them.

Book of the day has died, I’m too lazy to think of books every day, but I’m gonna do a book of the week. I like sharing my fave books with people.

Oh and I’m goin’ on vacation on sunday, so I don’t know when I’ll be able to update. I’ll try, but I can’t promise.

Well that’s all

Tata for now
Ali Kat

Can I just say that taking the dog to the vet sucks!!!!

I had to take one of my dogs to get a kennel cough vaccine. we’re going on vacation and the car’s to small to take her with. Pitty cause my uncle’s dog would love to play with her, but a 30 lb dog just doesn’t travel as well in a ford focus as a 15 pound one.

Any ways, she runs around the yard on the way to the car, kept trying to sit in my lap in the car, doesn’t want to enter the building, gets scared of the vet, gets scared of another dog, and then doesn’t want to get back in the car, tries to sit in my lap on the way back, and then doesn’t want to go in the house. All this for a single vaccine. For me the biggist irk is the fact that I had to get up at 9 and had to skip breakfast. I greatly value my sleep thank you very much, and my food!

On other things, I was able to add to my mp3 collection. I now have two Toby Keith albums, Blue Moon and Pull my Chain; and Diamond Rio, One More Day. As you can probably tell, I’m on a contry kick at the moment.

Just to make things interesting, I think that I’ll do a book of the day, starting today.
So today’s book is:
Mr. Perfect, by Linda Howard
Murder mystery, suspence, and romance all in one.
Four women come up with a list of what would make the perfect man. It started out as joke, but soon became a nation wide news story. Things turn ugly when one of the women is brutaly murdered. Her boyfriend is the obvious suspect, but he has an iron tight alibi. Soon it’s a race against time for the other three as they try to escape a phycotic killer.

Okay I’m done with this thing

May the force be with you
Ali Kat