This week is the last week of my internship. no sure sign of a job, but its nearly a positive. Also I may be able to work in the conservation lab this coming semester too. A real snazzy deal between a boss the head of conservation over there, who also was a previous teacher of mine as well.

Classes start up far too soon for comfort I feel like summer has slipped away and not enough books have been read or clothes made.

But on that note I made three pairs of sleeping shorts for a friend for her birthday and my man a short sleeve button down. All came out well.

These are the shorts, the shirt will come later along with the wiggle dress in the making and images on the previous polka dotted dress I created. I suppose I have been busier than I thought initially... Does it say something that my last dress for me and my current in the works are both spotted? I may have an obsession...

OH! And i grew a cucumber on my balcony!

See!

:D lunch tomorrow!

Short but sweet, more later!

So. My husbands fantasies were mainly based around watching men fuck me. He has also found that when I flirt with men, even when he is not there, he gets only mildly jealous and extremely horny! He also really wants to tie me to a chair with my ass up in the air and have guys, one after one come in and fuck me. We've also been into BDSM so he would really love to watch me Dom either a guy or a girl ... or even a couple. Or to have either a guy or a girl come in and Dom me. He has had a fantasy of watching a guy cum in me as well. Mainly because it takes them cumming in me to get me the best orgasm. And he really wants to see me have the most pleasure. He wants to hear me scream from the most pleasure I've ever had. He loves it! So...

We finally got up the balls to have someone come over... we had a threesome with one of his friends. it took me having my husband there and drinking to stop feeling guilty... I felt like I was cheating on my husband when he wasn't there. But as soon as he was there I started to really enjoy it. I think my fav part was where my husband was playing and sucking on my nipples and kissing me, and the other guy was going down on me and fingering me. I came probably like 3 times just in that one position(shall we call it?)!

Then that guy and I have had some alone times as well. I kind of have a hard time when I can't think of him as someone other than my husbands friend... i have a really hard time with this sometimes.... But once I get passed that it's all good!

I've also had some time with our photographer from our wedding.... tee-hee ^__^ He was fun. he was big... wide.... I had to open my mouth very wide to get him fully in! MMMMMmmmmm.... he stretches me.... I like it!

Anyway, big issues I have: You need to brush your teeth!
I used to be a dental assistant. you need to have good breath!
You need to shower and use deodorant! srsly!
Don't come over here wanting to sex me up with bad BO!
And have a condom on you!!!!

Well my dears, it's been quite some time since I last posted on here. Truth is, events have crept up on me rather quickly.

As you may know, my darling came to visit me mid June. While work made things rather difficult, I still enjoyed every minute of time I had with him and Aidan, and especially curling into his arms after a long day. I can't even begin to tell you how much I miss that.

Last week I finally ventured out to SoCal, which was quite an experience. Chris showed me an incredible time, and I absolutely adore all the wonderful people I was able to meet while out there. I can't wait to be able to go back (next time for a bit longer.. and when I'm not puking in the car [sorry, Nic!]). We spent a day in San Diego, Oceanside, L.A./Hollywood, as well as Malibu. It was a dream come true, and a much needed vacation. It sucks I got so sick toward the end of my trip, but believe me.. I'll be back, California.. and with a vengeance!

It's barely been a full day since I've been back, and I already miss Chris more than anything. I miss his bear hugs, and those kisses that always give me shivers. I miss him reaching for my hand while driving, and kissing my knuckles every chance he got. He's undoubtedly perfect in every way, and completes me unlike anyone (lover or otherwise) has. I can't help but tear up as I write this.. looking to my bed and seeing nothing but an empty pillow. But, we're at the tail end of this distance nightmare. We're both tying up our last couple of loose ends before we meet up in the middle. Our ultimate goal is a month, but we've promised each other (and ourselves) no more than two months. We've been through so much for this long already, these next 8 weeks will be cake; then we'll never have to worry about those dreadful goodbyes ever again.

Side note:

However...
This post is different. :)

I have been getting news that Brittany has been feeling better lately. Which to me is as refreshing as a Powerade slushie from Sonic on a hot 100 degree temperature day. Hm, that metaphor made me thirsty. ;)

It is just nice to hear some good uplifting news from the bff.

She has another chemo treatment August 6th.

She has a special Facebook page (I keep forgetting to mention it until now) that you can visit and 'like' it. She is an extremely special person to me and any support that you could lend would be tremendous. Here is the link for copying and pasting purposes (since I have no idea how to make it a link):

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/PrayersforBrittanyDalton?ref=ts

Please let me know if that does not work. Thanks. ;)

RELAX BETCH. Well not the betch part but he was thinking it...

UGH. I need to start over this semester. Things just haven't been going the way I want. Not academically, not romantically, not socially... I just need to be done with school. I'm thinking about moving again after I graduate. I don't know where yet but it is something I'll think about. Maybe California, maybe somewhere on the East Coast...maybe not. I like snow, but to visit...lol. 2+ feet of snow is no joke. And I'm a SoCal girl...-thefuck do *I* know about the snow and surviving in it????

Things have been a bit better with Russell and I. I know I just said romantically things aren't going the way I want, but they're still better than they were last month or even in May. Which is good. I hope things keep moving in this positive direction.

I started my medication again. Or am supposed to. I keep forgetting. I need to put a reminder on my phone like I used to for my birth control pills. ((Don't freak out, I didn't stop taking it, I just have the Depo shot thing))

I think that's it right now. I need to finish a midterm. Oh, BTW....CANDY ROCKS liek times A THOUSAND!!! Just thought I'd put that out there. :)

Things seem to be okay. The birthday party was meh. Davids brother and sister in law really didn't seem interested in speaking to me. I guess they were tired or something. oh well. less interaction the better, in my opinion.

David is finally starting to come to grips with the fact his father is an asswipe. he said to ME the other day (without being provoked) that he just sick of hearing how his family is pissed that he isn't the one making the long distance relationship with his father work. He is tired of being the "problem child" to his dad's family, especially because he is the only one trying to make something of himself by going to college. Basically he told me he is sick of his father for putting the fear of God in him and he needs to change- he knows he is better than his dad and wants to learn how to stand up for himself. (i about jumped for joy inside when he was saying all of this- but I let him rant) His stepdad is also being quite the asshole too. Saying little comments about how "not all of us can afford to eat out every night" (even though his family "can't afford to feed him" so if he doesn't find his own food he will starve... I just love circular reasoning.) Maybe someday we can get counseling for him for all of these father complex problems he is dealing with.

Fucking Danzig, man... The show was just awesome. Life has been pretty good, lately. Work has been crazy, but I'm finally getting recognition and respect, not to mention all the overtime I can handle. It's not just work, either. My family has been showing me respect, too. Doyle's hot sauce is awesome. Random, I know, but true. With all the overtime, I've been getting some money together, as well. I'm pretty much on top of my game lately. We'll see how long I can keep juggling it all. Also, I highly recommend giving Ensiferum a listen. If you're my kind of person, you will not be disappointed. Specifically, check out Stone Cold Metal, One More Magic Potion, and of course, The Wanderer. I dare you not to like it.

So, I'm back.

Not sure how regularly I'll post here. I also have a facebook, deviantart, myspace, and livejournal to keep up with.

But I kinda like it here because -- I don't think anyone knows me on this site.

Quick update on my life:

I married Ryan December 31, 2008. Got fed up with him using porn and lying to me all the damn time in summer 2009. Moved back in with my parents around August. Finalized the divorce in January 2010.

Maintained a 4.0 GPA at APSU, taking classes full-time - through the divorce and everything. Kinda proud of that.

Still haven't had any regular job. I draw a lot. Applied to Rhode Island School of Design and got accepted. And now I have no clue how to pay for it. It'd be more than $54,000 for my first year. Never the less, I'm headed out there for the required summer foundations program that starts June 17. I can pay the $7k for that with the excess scholarship I've been saving up.

I got in-touch with Ralph again when things started falling apart with Ryan. Ralph was the first person I was able to tell about all the issues Ry and I were having. I was afraid to tell family or friends. Ralph was far enough removed to not damage the situation in any way.

I never got over Ralph. Not since I was 16. Still remember the way I bawled. Still have the letter I never sent. I'm taking it with me when I fly to NJ tomorrow. (I'm staying out there for a week or so before heading to RI for the art program.)

The thought of actually meeting Ralph is still so hard to grasp.

just finished watching lost.
there is one 2 hr episode left.
titled the end.
i feel it ending and it's breaking my heart.
lost, i will miss ye.
watching ryan play fallout3.
i love him.
he makes me laugh like a hyena.
he's my favorite.
my gamer king.
on the hunt for a new place to live.
over this place.
it did me well.
time to move on.
our work is never over.
my meloversary is tomorrow.
technically in 25 minutes.
may 19th changed my life.
melo forever.
i hope i remember to write the long beautiful melo entry that's been swimming in my brain.
i am continuing to pull my shit together piece by piece.
so far, so good.
i am extremely happy with life right now.
with the positive changes looming on the horizon.
not everything is perfect.
never is.
some shit works out, some doesn't.
life goes on.
i am extremely blessed.
and profoundly grateful for what i have.
i miss this community.
i am still writing about the same goddamn shit.
same shit, different day.
eight years later.

"why don't you blog about it?"

i'm gonna.
i'm fucking gonna.

So i will be checking the email for new pics and sets..Lishie wont be online for a bit..but this time its not her choice..if u have her melo go see her reason but hopefully she will be back soon

so new models...and old ones remember to send pics to the gmail address not our personal address please and once again ill start fishing out there if any new girls like to model for us please do :)

seems like the BIG 3 (us, ECA and Heartbreakers) have slowed down a lot on new pics
makes me a sad panda lol we all need to fix that

Later Daze and Stay Gold
~Adrian (adrn5150)