but then decided it was dumb. No offense to those who's Melo'sare friends only. I just thought if i did it i would contradict myself on the whole i dont care if you judge me. most of you dont know me anyways lol but i made a cute lil friends only image thingy for it and i thought i would share it :)

NOTE:
Im not really friends only so all you tourists and nontourists can feel free to take a look at my life.

Don't like me? Then leave and have a nice day :)

As selfish as this sounds, I like to be selfish and vain. The down side, i don't have to rely on anyone to get me to where I am. I don't rely on other people to deal with my emotions, and I don't have people in my life that have a grasp over the emotions that I don't want to share.

When I am angry or upset by something, I initiate it.. If anything in my life has an uncomfortable presence.. I can do something simple 3,21 leave. Life is that simple. Life is so predictable, when people break up with people, time and time again, most people break up with all of their partners. Everything has patterns, and when you find them you're farther ahead than the rest of us.

LIfe gets so dull for me because I always know the next step. usually it always ends badly. When your confiding on a friend who is cheated on.. perhaps that friend may have a constant habit of always being cheated on.. To me, if all of your partners cheat on you - maybe its not their fault they cheat. I don't like to throw blame. I try to deal with things rationally and myself to get quick solutions. I don't put myself into these situations where I rely on other people. When i rely on other people and get disappointed, it hurts. When I constantly rely on the same person and get let down over and over again, i am at fault. Not anyone else.

When couples fight, over and over again- at the end of it: all fights have the same argument. Fix it the right way, or don't consider me a friend when you ask me for consolidation.

These kinds of friendships are very poor investments. Please for yourself, don't fall into the loop.

When you rely solely on someone else for your own happiness, the end result is you will be void, and empty. The distance gap you put between your other friends and your family will be traumatic, and their is no happy ending.

Live, Love and Learn

Sam VIP

Dear GreyHound Customer Service

Thank you for ungratefully replying to my 3 page letter that I sent you in December.

YOU SUCK.

I was graceously overcharged 100 $ by an employee, and I had it confirmed from your 1800 number and your website that I was over charged and their is nothing you can do to help me. This is concerning that you have corrupt emploees working for you.

I have to, as a consumer, put up with your inexperienced sales associates and be over charged for their ignorance. I can not help that i am over charged because your employees don't know how to do their job properly. i am sorry that I know your policy and group packages more than your own employees. How do you rebuttal an uneducated employee when you don't have an alternate choice, and you are dealing with an extreme conflict when their is only one employee working. Your employee tells me that i am wrong. You can't tell someone 1+ 1 is 2 if they are persistent enough to think it is 3.

I am glad that you don't bother to go out of your way to even inquire on the employee's stability in the office. Do other people have complaints or are they just lost in the mail? I am glad that the tickets that were purchased were also dated for the wrong day, and I had to pay for 2 separate transactions because you made a mistake. (Generally, one transaction and one payment is preferred).

Because of my experience in dealing with my customer Service, I am truly greatful people get their heads cut off while using your services. It is a strong reflection of how good your customer service is.

This is my angst..

(I bought 2 bus tickets for my friends who I mentioned in a previous post came to visit me - and was grotesquely overcharged because the ticket agent didn't combine the fair.. anyways sour rant).

Happy Pre Valentines day,

Sam VIP

As often as I hate censorship, some forms of PDA are necessary in life; the same censorship sometimes should be taken online. In my life, I have taken that more literally.
When I first became sexually active, I wanted to keep my own red-shoe diary of this. With photos, details and post this online. This would be under the impression that I was modestly sexually active. i was. Curiosity is a spice of life.

I remember those Sex ED classes when we were in elementary school where they would separate the boys from the girls, we watched a movie, and then were given this pamphlet. Shortly after, I remember my mom saying "if you give your partner everything they need, they will never leave you." She seemed to do something right because it worked for her. She got married, and stayed married.

I was quite active with my online memoirs of my sexual deviance (this was right when I first started online journaling). This is when I Kind of discovered why people used fake names on the internet - to avoid anything incriminating. This was bad, because my target demographic for reading my exploits was the people I was exploiting. That would obviously backfire, so I deleted my account. However, i still have journals and blogs saved on a file on my computer. References are always amazing.

That has made me question a lot tho - for the reference of using fake names on the internet. It is so sad when people have to pretend to be someone else, to the extent of even some people go so far as using other peoples photos and passing them off as themselves. That I hate. I know some people have so much to share, but fear of rejection. I am glad this website has encouraged individualism, with some knock off's, some betty ford's, and some originals. I've never understood why people cant just post their own pictures of themselves, and tell their own stories and use their own names...

Some people run from their past and others live in it. For the love of yourself. Please don't be these people.

Quite often for me to move forward, I have to dissect my friends emotions, relationships and general understandings of life for me to get a grasp on my own life. I can take my findings and apply them on myself, and on my friends when I seek greater improvements. Maybe its crazy, maybe its normal. Maybe I'm a cat reject from the movie Autopsy.
Either way, It seems that a lot of peoples bad traits are learn-ed via osmosis. Monkey see- Monkey do. . I rather "do as I say, not as I do".

In my current state, I am glad it is my friend having a problem and not me. Its a sigh of relief. A semi close friend of mine is having a serrrious problem with relationships (i am trying to keep this ambiguous - in case my friend comes across my journal HA.). MY friends problem with relationships, is the same problem my friends parents have; and I can't blame genetics, but It is sad to see these trends being copied to the next generation. My friend has no idea what they are doing is wrong, and this is so so horrible. Its like your brain washed, and i am sitting from outside the operation room watching as a helpless bystander.

In comparison. You can never learn enough, yet, some forms of government seem to think too much information is a bad thing. I personally don't like secrets and censorship; however, in my friends shoes- my friend is afraid to disclose information.."the important stuff that you should tell your partner- to make you both equal". Secrets in relationships are bad = hell. Where is the trust.

Its sad when nobody can get through to someone because of what they have 'been through' because they have a life of fear.

Do you ever think their is a solution-- because frankly I don't :/

But I keep hearing that people's FO posts are showing up publicly. I guess I'll just have to write my FO posts in a word document for now. *sigh*