My friend Scott is having a party tonight. I really, REALLY want to go but... New Year's fuckup's girlfriend is going to be there. Meaning there is a huge possibility for major awkwardness and/or fighting, depending on how pissed she is, and I have absolutely no idea how she feels about me/the situation.

Here's a recap:
-Boy breaks up with Girl.
-Boy tells me that it is totally over with Girl.
-I get extremely trashed at Boy's house on New Years Eve and we end up having sex. Terrible sex, in fact. Does it even count if it lasts less than 5 minutes?
-Two days later, boy gets back with Girl.
-Inevitably, the truth comes out and Girl finds out.

Again, I have no idea how she feels about the whole situation. I mean, yes, they were broken up but it would be completely understandable for her to be mad. I don't really care about her, per se, but I don't want to go to a party and end up embarrassed, or shunned. I just want to have a good time!
What do you think, melo?

Should I stay or should I go?

*edit*
I talked to Boy and he says that as long as I never mention "the incident" to Girl that she won't either, and that she never wants to hear about it ever again. And that apparently she was never really upset with me, just him. Grand!

I've never tried to be any older than peter pan. I don't like the taboos of our aging society so I try to avoid it at all costs. I don't like poor health as an associative phrase to getting older. Disgusting.

Being older does not have anything to do with being smarter or more wise.

Being old can be both ugly and beautiful.

Being smart beyond your years can be a gift just as much as it can be a curse.

I always hear my friends boasting back at me, "Sam, you were right...." Well, do you know what, SOMETIMES BEING RIGHT HURTS!

"Your boyfriend is going to cheat on you" - "Sam, he did cheat on me, you are right". That doesn't make me happy--- even if it should.

Youth can give you so much creativity - its a fountain of knowledge in the right hands. Its refreshing and distressing to see children wise beyond their years. Some people I have met ten years younger have had amazing minds that would shock some people twice their age.

Sadly most people with amazing minds are over looked. Now, I wonder, have you ever came across someone with a truly genuine amazing mind that makes you just say "wow".

So the Hot-Ness Monster (see: here) & I have talked a few times. Smoke breaks at work are great for that... Anyways, we don't really know each other but I figure that we've been in contact enough for him to at least be curious. So basically, now the ball is in his proverbial court. I'm not gonna go out of my way to try and run into him (or pretend I need to bum a smoke). I figure if he's interested or at least intrigued, he'll find ways to talk to me and if he isn't, well I'm too lazy and jaded to chase after him. I don't really know anything about him other than he is super hot, so I'm not gonna start getting my hopes up. Lie. They are. It just really sucks that we have basically no friends in common outside of work, so it's the only time he sees me. Ugh. Come on, fate! Can't you work in my favour just this once?

This day, I have so many sharp memories of this day in the past.

one year, i woke a green x-mas shirt to a bar with glitter in my hair. i got the same amount of looks as when i dressed up as santa on halloween. "your looking at me weird, when your the one drinking green beer"

in 2004, i wrote a "lucky" MELO entry, and was so excited, i ran to my back yard and found a four leaf clover just to post it.. if i have a second when i wake up, ill re post the photo i took.

when i was in university, a few years ago, me and my 2 gf's went to a random 24 hour diner and snorted sugar crystals with straws and had an all night movie marathon

this year.. its just another day to be remembered with copious amounts of glitter.

HAPPY ST. PATRICKS DAY MY FRIENDS

I could be with you, if I didn't hate myself so much. If I didn't feel like I would be doing you a disservice. If I didn't think you'd be taking a step down. If I thought I was worth it. If I thought I deserved it. If I was thinner, prettier, and less shy. If I thought I could make you happy. If I could take off my clothes and not be self-conscious.
Maybe one day I can be (and not be) all of those things. And I can only hope you'll stick around until then.

I am obsessed with this website. 2 weeks go i ordered maybe 30 items.. 15.. are still in the mail. i am anticipating an anxious weekend and exciting news Monday.

yes yes yes yes yes yes

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ps> do you use ebay? if so, what for?

I'm going to the Term tonight. A bunch of people I know are going. There is gonna be a flip cup tournament. I (probably) won't participate... Chugging beer isn't very lady-like. Mostly, I just want to go because someone who kind of... tickles my fancy is going to be there. I don't want to say who because I don't want to jinx anything. I barely know him but... who knows? Maybe tonight will be the night I get the chance to. Happy weekend, everyone.

"Precious writes everyday, and so should you"

hopefully we don't have rain this weekend. i want vanity.

more pics on my daily booth http://dailybooth.com/VIIP